kenangan hanyalah kenangan =(

my fucking kenangan is at my xanga post. I cried a few days ago when I read it. Especially the last post. She could tell how hard for me to spill out all the word that day that night&&after a few days he dumped me. It's already a long time since we broke up. But the fucking kenangan couldn't  just slip out from my memory land. Ugh. Although sometimes I thought that I've over it&&pretend that it's just a kenangan like how I used to forget about Aaron (: but it ain't that easy. hmpph. punyalah menyedihkan my life, haha. 

my kenangan xanga blog :')

you guys view lah, even can kasih laugh me for my pathetic sad life (: hahaha. All the photos I'm with him? Hmm, already hilang habis, because my laptop had been formated. Memang sedih lar because hilang, but then I don't have any regret of losing it (: To anybody yang know him kan(I know many yang know him here), bagus kamu diam don't tell him anything. If not I sumpah you all cirit birit for your whole life, still dare? :p hahahaha. 

I even fed up already in this so called oh-la-la love game. Next year? Senior year? no more oh-la-la sayang (: Am not going to participate to that game no more for a year or 2. Beautiful lies, no (: Even going to be vegetarian. School starting, say hello to apple once more time. 

Hazel dad's like don't want her to pindah convent this :'( I sedih gila oh. HAZEL!!!!!!!! Kasih tambah my emo. Whoosh~ Hazel, i miss you oh!!! But oh well, going to beach this friday with her. maybe bina&nina joining too. Can't wait. weee~weee~weee~~~~  

what is hard in breaking up is not about being apart

but it's about leaving all the memories apart after building it up

:) 

ciaos bonita (:

!@#$%^&*()CVBNMMNBFGHJKUYTR#$%^&*(*&^%

currently downloading o2jam,next one maple. 6 more hours to go yo!

2007 (':

i miss 2007 so much, thanks for Ah Yen reminding me. Now I feel so effin emo :') grrrr~ They were the greatest one of all. Many things we've been through together. Leaving them was the hardest thing I've done. I so wish we could stick together like usual. Like 2007. Blasting birthday that they made for me (: I love them more than they love me. HAHA. since I started missing them, I texted them till now. RAWR!!! Caroline, Joanne, Ah Yen, Grace, Malina, Janet, Gabriel, Tan, Tong, Qing, Mooi, Pei Zhen, Herman. ALL LAH! muahhhh!!! cinta tak terbatas :') i miss you guyssss. Although the guys ar, don't like me that much, because I always being that sarcastic to them. But they are the best. GABRIEL!!!! I hate you, NO!

i had sex with your boyfriend last night

I dream of one day I'll have my own big camera&&I'll have my own freedom. I dream of one day I'll step into another strangest home but yet discover a whole new adventures there with just my backpack with me&camera on my neck. My legs will walk with excitement to step every little footprints of history. I'll escape from the selfish-stressful-24/7 city to the fresh cinnamon summer sunshine shining city. Hoping I could do this every time when I feel so much bumping around. life's such a bitch sometime (:

i miss my camera :'(

another sunday random human

It's a 3 days before 2008 coming to the last page. I'll miss every little memories left in this year. Starting from changing to a new school, meeting new people, new surrounding, cheerleading, injured, bakat interact, fight, new boyfriend, mumy, got dumped (: stuff stuff stuff. Another excitement to be fill in the new tittle new chapter for 2009. Had my supper with dady&uncle, gonna start tution yo! Ain't no rejection for this one, no complain, thank you (: Kakak Onong went to visit mumy today. Dady says he could get me a new camera but I've got to promise him something as the exchange of it. WTF. nevermind, I love him no matter what (: What did I do for the holidays? It's practicly the same old one everyday. Now that I already terer konon jarum mumy, so I think I could be a doctor I guess? hahaha. Everyday, Every 10 pm I'll inject insulin to mumy. lol. Am seriously getting fat yo! so I think kan, I found a jumping rope now. So I should get started working out. Running cannot, nanti sakit my injured part. hmph~ So start with jumping lah. I'm considering getting vege-fish human now. Like mom. no more pork/chicken/itik/meat WATSOEVA. I know this going to be hard, but for my health? I'll do anything for it (: TIA! you see lah, I kasi show you I can jadi punya :p

p.s. do vegetarian eat egg? just wondering. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT EGG!!

ciaos bonita (:

tagged

1. take a recent picture of yourself or take a pictures right now(!)..

2. don’t change your clothes, just take a picture..
3. post that picture with NO editing..
4. post the picture with these instruction..
5. tag 5 people to do this

Instructions:
#Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
#Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 peoples.
#List them out at the end of the post.
#Notify them in their cbox that they’ve been tagged.

1.What’s your ambition?

MANY (:

2.Who is more important to you?

EVERYONE&EVERYTHING.

3.are u looking for a boyfriend?

seriously?NOPE.

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?

depends.

5.How many babies you want?

previously I want many, but after some discovery, I'll say NOPE (:

6.Do you wanna play this tag?

WAHTP?

7.What is your goal for this year?

or do you mean next year?

8.Do you love your everything?

I love chocolate

9.What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u?

TIDAK SUBSCRIBE PORNO WEBSITE, thank you (:

10.What are you really afraid of?

tangkap tikus

11.What are your bad habits?

cabut rambut

12. Describe yourself in 5 words.

short,muscle-ish,talkative,unbeutiful&PHOTOWHORE

13. State a random fact about yourself.

I like to give people THAT look (:

14.What does flying means to you?

terbang

15.What do you crave for the most currently?

CAMERA FUCK!

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words.

Si Hazel B? mmmbah. friendly(because I only knew her for few months now jadi my anak sudah), preety, cute, gila, photowhore, kaki lepak :p pendek(sama like me)

17. what kind of novels do you like?

anything, thank you (:

18.What is in your mind now?

ending up 2009 immidietly.

19.Who are you?

lucynda joey jamiol

20. what do you wanna do before you die?

tell everybody how much they meant to me&i love them so much (:

I tagged:

tia,ryu,zeda,jessica,selina,ona

cover songs

Stay - Estrella (cover) GAGAGA!!!!
tralalalala~ Again a new video from me (: heee~ "please stay,just stay&I will take you to foreverland,just stay" nice kan the song? Before this me&jr took already this video bah, with jr stupid gaya at my back. MANATAW! The mic aint working that time. STUPIAK! PIAK! PIAK! PIAK!!! ish. So, when I took the second time, jr aint cooperating :') hahahaha. bitch him. End up me record from dady's laptop. grrr. Grandpa&Grandma is here now because this year my family didn't really got to celebrate anything in a suitable time nor situation. If you got what I mean. I ate ALOT of chocolate today plus bak kut teh plus ikan panggang plus sup ikan. lalalala~ I'm getting fat :'( I need to work out. Ronald Jenkees songs is totally the beat yawll! The groove he made from only 99% of it from the electronic keyboard. SHITNESS!! I wurvessss his beatss. Gawsh (: Changed my playlist in this blog to his. You should check it out, my previous post. I mean previous previous previous. DULU~ I mentioned about HOTCHIP. yeap, they got beats too yawll! I'm totally into all those beats which makes my body go dum-dam-dush-dam-dam. so sex! hahahaha. Watched many of the coming up movie trailers for next year which is in few more days. DRAGONBALL??!! GOKU!? Aren't his supposed to be JAPANESE? Gah, those orang putih pandai ambil kesempatan oh! hahaha. So weird bah when all this while you are watching dragoncball&goku with his spiky spiky japanese cuteness attitude turn out to be erm maybe los angeles?white chicks guy? LAWAK!!! hahahaha. I can't wait to watch "The confession of a shopaholic" I read the novels(I think all pun sudah),it's FABULOUS, so I expect the movie is the same too.
ciaos bonita (:

bueno award (:

almost forgotten. sulina gave me this award.

so deary of her to gave me one.

I don't know which one out of the 5 reason that my blog are.

but if there's a SMEXY BLOG AWARD.

I should get one too (:

gahahahahahahahhahahaa

SMEXY BLOG BONITA!

I'm not gonna give anyone any award.

neh! baru taw jaat sama aku!

lalalalala~

xoxoxo.

ciaos bonita (:

i'm a woman now, i wear a BRA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMEERA TIARA BINTI AYUB AMAN (: ILY xoxoxoxoes

NICK VUJICIC- "no leg,no arm,no worries"
I cried when I my dad gave me his laptop&asked me to watch this video. But I only cried when it came to the part when he said "along the way you might fall down like this(as he let his body fall), so what did you do when you fall down? get back up? everybody knew you'll get back up. but if i start walking, im not going anywhere. But I tell you there is sometimes in life, when you fall down, you feel that you don't have the strength to get back up. Do you think you have hope? Because I'm telling you, I'm down here, face down and I have 's no arms, no legs. It should be impossible for me to get back up, but IT'S NOT. You see, I will try 100 times to get up, if I fell 100 times, if I failed&I give up, do you think I'm ever gonna get up? NO! But If I fell, I try again&again&again. But I just want you to know that it's not the end, it matters how you gonna finish. Are you gonna finish strong? And you will find that strength to get back up, like this(as he using his head&strength to get back up,drrooll TEARS oh! so touching)" TOTALLY an inspiration for me. Took me to those whole new level of life on how I should get back to my original track now. No details about it, thank you (: JESSICA ALBA SO HOT!!!! so I think my horny part can't be lost, hahaha. so gay, I love being gay (: watched ANGUS THONG&PERFECT SNOGGING and MAKE IT HAPPEN. All in youtube. Imagine you dying to learn how to snogg that well until you desperately met a person to learn how to snogging. GAH! I can't believe I hid the ferrero roche for couples of weeks&ate it by myself only. I'm so selfish&I don't know&don't care. tralalalala~ working on my new songs. wanted it to be sounded fresh&catchy. aaw. Ah Yen being so bitch about memorable 2008. HAHA. I know what had happened to her, because it happen to many.
"I don't want to be beautiful to you, I just want to be somebody in the room to you"ciaos bonita (:

christmas yo!

totally a whole new sex 

i'm dying to have one of these.RAWR.

it's christmas yo! but then I'm posting peep-toe booties picture here. nouh, it's totally a whole new sex man! look at those! so smexy gila :) *I think I wanna go emo with chinese songs now. Don't chu think chinese lyrics so emo? hahaha x) no offense people. jadi emo syok bah. oh shit, I seriously listening to one now. lalala~ wo ai ni~ ni bu ai wo~ hahahaha.

maciam x'mas? hmmph, x'mas eve I didn't went to church. On that day Francess-Hazel-Malina bawa jalan. But all I can't go punyalah. sedih. suddenly I miss francess nih, HUHU :'( hahahahhaha. The real x'mas day? oh, I went to MALAY MASS with my aunty only&&I got bbbq-panggang-roasted outside there. TUARAN!!!!! that's what I've been waiting to go. Got big christmas tree, food-foOD-FOOD! , talking, play, HANA&HANI. nyehehehe. NORA!? MANA KAW??? mantang mantang kaw dapat hang out sama orang kamera besar kasih tinggal kamilah. huhu. AKU JEALOUS :) 

oh, forgot to mention I wore the black new dress that meera gave to me. yay! so preety yo! the dress lah (:

Then the girls, including anak&mama&nenek was in one room, all was like sleeping kaki watsoeva. talk talk talk. Mumy Brandon lambah, gah! Her bobies so superb man man oh man! Mama don't feel unwell, so I kasih makan her ubat then we terus balik. So this is how my simple christmas celebration for today (: tralalalalala~ Don't get much presie. but who cares? I already got my early xmas present which is MY CAMERA&&I LOST IT! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! gay life of course.

fabulous! Meera is stalker number one&me number two (: I want him to be my boyfriend, thank you =) oh shit! he is so hot!!!!!!!!! we both were like crazy of him now, I WANT HIM!!! He is in UITM now. winked* That day at cp, I can't get his eyes of me. I bet meera too :D:D:D Now we added his fs (: wwuuu~ smexaaay~ MARK MALIM is hot too!!!! oh-shit, getenesssss. rawr. TWTWTWTWTWTW!!!!! blek. 

BUENO 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

santa lucynda (:

thx meera! xoxo

you'll find me, in the new chapter tomorrow

hana&hani&christmas tree

they were just too cute too be true

so now it's the end of the story.

&&

I HATE ENDING IT UP MYSELF.

xoxo.

ciaooos bonita (: