2 more days to 2010

oh wow, this week was a bit chaotic. been out for almost everyday with phone calls from dady asking why don't i text to tell him i'm out. sorry :( there's waffle and big apple beside me now. i didn't eat anything LOL i'm just too tired until i can't reply any text and luckily phone call made me woke up at 12 midnight and talk hours like usual. tumblr, such an addicting site. tumblarity? i don't get that thing hahaha x) all i can see is it's dropping everyday although i did post crap there. seriously i don't click with it :D :D

night before, Q having a problem with the picture that I and Tia took. I know it's hard for him to accept but at least save the stupidity please -.- I'm going to take the computer test for driving tomorrow. wish me luck NO hahahahha x) then tomorrow going to airport. Iqbal's leaving tomorrow D: just when he's enjoying days with Tia so much these days and now he got to leave. But of them is so cute core lah, caps always on their head wherever they both go. maybe heading to her house on the noon to spend some time together and sleepover there tomorrow *finger cross*

monday? went window shopping with Hazel since the plan to go to 1b were canceled -.- took some photos at the Grafiti building hahaha high waist addicting D: i love it. i wanted to buy high waist short pant but it cost 90$ at 1b *sigh* both of my high waist skirt was the original one, did not buy it but it's my moms skirt for past of the decade ago hahahaha

ok lah . i ciao first.

merry fucking christmas

hey ever heard of guilty christmas? hahaha yes christmas that was filled with shit guilt that everyone is pouring on to me. just because, just because just becauseeeee. damn, nevermind :( i'm tired of hiding under the shades, i'm tired of faking that smile, because you guys know that i'm not me. i hate me, i hate being me :) sorry i can't make everyone happy, sorry if you guys mad, im just sorry.

fuck yeahhh!!!

so yeah, i got a toy camera with me now. It's an analog camera OLYMPIA DL 2000A. Maybe I'm a bit too happy here because what I actually expected was a DSLR. the story behind buying this fucking toy camera was quiet upseting and annoying D: this camera was stuck inside my dad cupboard until this daughter came out discovering it. I went and look for a review for this thing and it turn out to be a toy camera D: *sigh* but I still haven't take any picture from it yet. Dad asked me to go get some film tomorrow and try it on. Review for this kind of camera http://nicnichols.com/FourCornersDark/?page_id=3178= is actually quiet interesting but i don't know, I've got to try this as soon as possible man hahaha.

i don't have a problem, i have a million problems.nb

every body out of credit today D: sorry cor, can't reply you.

today was splendid :) not much of problems only when we have to get back to cp and stuck in the traffic plus standing inside the bus D: suffered. nevermind.

again, everyone is out of credit D:

yOu liKE it When iT's xMas HuH!???

I'M SICK OF THISSS

zebra printed stuff.

CHEETAH PRINTED STUFF -.-

it's okey to fancy about all this stuff BUT please don't brag it too much because it's SICK. NO, I didn't mean to criticize that way (actually i do :p ) but it's just sick man, so sick to see all of this. I don't know why you should have all in ONE FULL SET of it -.- maybe one or two stuff is good enough. man, i watched too much people this few days, i viewed alot of photo this few days, the IN thing for now is so mainstream and weird in a way. Sometimes it's funny when designer wants to create something in a weird way and yet peeps just following it. Well I might say they're are FASHION BLIND, just because they're wearing some TOP designer outfits will make them FASHIONABLE as what they think in their mind. People this days should open up their mind and start going to the real fashion. Fashion is not about having some pricey stuff and tuck it with your body, it's about HOW you're presenting it. Man, this is tiring hahahaha I wish I could be in Marie Claire 'Fashion Disaster' page column IF they're having one or maybe if I'm lucky VOGUE. I'm hunger for some fashion critics HAHAHA

Today was fun. Hung out with the twin and ged after having a small celebration for Junyi's Bday. Bought high waist belt and also a skinny jeans. NO i'm not sick with skinny jeans just YET hahaha :p J couldn't come today *sigh* nevermind, sleeping in the cinema was fun :) yet stranded in the mall for few hours got me spending in HARRIS for an hour to spend with some of the magazine. the new IN right now is STUDDED sandal, heels, wedges, dress, top AND lots more. in my prediction, the next IN will be checkers jacket with big button, i think it's the 70's fashion. mmm, not sure but it's nice. maybe if you remember when your mama used to wear that jacket erm yang go to work punya. damn, i should get some picture but later lah cause i got to finish typing the essay first :O ciao.

ding dong bell

except for gettng dad'd nerves on, i just stay at house the whole day today well except for the night of course HAHA went to Gaya Street for dinner at the famous Bak Kut Teh restaurant (yummeh yummeeeh) and dad brought us walking across the street where you can actually see there's like many many of heads moving left right front back (@@) dad bought shades and reading glasses there and jr bought the SO CALLED NERD GLASSES that he wanted all this while. seriously, no sense of fashion -.- J said that it's an IN THING for now but I'll say that it's an abuse of fashion :o no lah, cute bh juga that (bit lah -.-) I'm going to the driving talk this saturday, sunday will be 1b day.finally out and monday?out again. wait!i'm out with francess on friday!!! weee~!!!!

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SPEECHLESS :x

hello december

damn,it's already December! now, spm's over. what i did so far was neglecting the existent of my blogspot, reactive back my facebook, going up and down to keningau myself, my hair is middled part now, dyed my hair, sisha twice a week, stuck in the house some more, missing my girlfriends right now, oh and ugh i'll tell you the last one later :p

recently, i found joy in surfing more of tumblr photos, quotes, videos. that's the new xanga. monday? oh should have started my work days there at the pet shop at 1b. but it seems like i don't want to start that fast yet because i want to take my driving license and enjoy my december before i start my busy life back :o yes, i want to work. yes, i want some money. i'm looking forward for the trip to kl with the girls, mark this, only girls allowed in this trip hahaha.

i got something for my birthday this time, actually not it's not a big deal either about this present hahaha but well i got him now :) seh, whateverlah. although like what ryu said 60% beat up 40% but still i'll try to equalize it. i'll try, ok babe?hahaha. i love him bh, si jeremiah daniel.

mum, you born me today. i love you :*

you know i like you, right? te quero mucho hazel, izak, ged, cat, cor, junyi, ameera, adam fu, iqbal, olin, priitiiiiii. everbody who made my day today :) especially him. 2 surprise in one day? enough to make me fall to fever. ily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ello ello elllllooooo!!!!

for some reason I want this blog to be deleted HAHAHA
i can't help it for having this gay mind HAHAHA
that freaking double D guy perasan to the max HAHAHA
i can't believe i got emo just because my friend broke up HAHAHA
i'm eating more and more this few days because my endometrium is going to splash soon HAHAHA
you hippo girl!!!asabiah!!!!!you made her end the relationship!!!you mean!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!she don't deserve all this.damnnnnn!!!!!!i kesian her oh :'(
that ginko supplement aunty alice bought made me hyper HAHAHA
sharmaine!!!!don't lah don't like perfume!!!!i smell nice bah :p HAHAHA
HAZEL I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm back normal sudah bah :p HAHAHA
GED I LOVE YOU!!!!!CAT!!!!!YOU TOO!!!COR!!!abit lah :p AMEERA TO THE MAX I SAYANG!!!!!!!! x) i'm glad god lemme met you 5.you never knew how much it meant to me x)
i'm going to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs at 7!!!!!!!!!!
damn 9 hours at ums tomorrow.
my sacrifying list better give me something for my spm!!!!!!!
what an awesome god we have, just listen to my playlist throughout my disappearing,kay?
i'm trying to make this my last post. amen.

SMELL YOU 3 MORE MONTHS LATER!!!!!!!!!!!

&&do you think i should adopt or get pregnant?ok,that's random x)

when the baby smiled.

for the last one,
SMILE FOR YOU!

despite all the things that had happened, despite all the promises i'd made to myself, i'm here again updating my blog :) i'm listening to "a mother's prayer" right now, Ged on this song in the car when we're on our back from lunch to library. such a wrong timing for my mood, got me cried like a river and suddenly cor played another song, and she said this "ironicly, this song's from p.s. i love you" man, she just like to see me crying hard bah HAHAHA but things was okey again, i love crying hahahaha i miss my mom bah :p don't blame me. i hate feelings, feelings killed me like thousand time. but hey, lucynda bah this. i'm still standing x) because of the mood, i preferred sitting alone in the library today. except when ling asked me to accompany her lah. stayed late again in the library for history papers tomorrow. when i'm on the way back home, there's this baby on the next car. i do the HI waving hand to her, and she hid herself, then she played with me. she did the 'teropong teropong' with me, and i did the same too, she placed her hand on the window, and i did the same too, she smiled at me and i winked at her. she's so cute :) although I don't know who's baby is that, but she actually made my day brighter.

somehow, i tend to make stupid promises to myself. promises about what to do and not to do. and now i'm making few stupid promises. i'm sorry if i don't reply any text anymore in the future because i tend to off my phone and leave it died itself.

every song is making me SICK! real SICK! it could drag me to the river of tears HAHAHA shiss. can i pity myself? is it wrong to pity myself? it's aching beautiful life :) muah. you know? when we're on the last hug, i wish that i could say i love you once more or maybe for the last time. but it's wrong to do so HAHAHA kill me for the thing i'm gonna act on real soon, i don't mean to do so but i wish welllll, just understand lah, kay? on the phone with her, crying on the phone with her. thank you for all the effort to make me calm. you're just the perfect shoulder to cry one, although you're skinny HAHAHAHA this feeling just going to last for today, 13th of october 2009. after that date, i'd promised myself to let it flow easily and don't think much anymore.

every word that i said, i meant it. every smile that i gave, it's sincere. every conversation that i'm in, im IN. i knew you too much. promise me you'll make her happy no matter what, don't care what i feel no more. i never regreted what i'd did because if i never did that action, you'll never meet that girl of yours and never realise that you actually got a chance to be with her. my action, made you realised it now. i got so much to say to you, but i think you know what i'm thinking. don't worry, i won't rub that thinggy off hahahaha x) or maybe i will :p no lah. just joking. lots lots lots of heats for you bastard <3

BYE BYE
poooof!

what hurts the most :')

What hurts the most

Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.

because this heart will always be some space for you.

in a city of millions
everyone has their own LOVE STORY
from first LOVE
to LOVE denied
to everlasting LOVE
and everything in between.


fall in LOVE all over again



NEW YORK
I LOVE YOU

in fact, i still do.

"SHE'S FOREVER MINE. HAHA. CANNOT ESCAPE FACT!"
&&i wonder, will that really be forever from you? 3 am telling you how I miss you so much. Tsunami movie got me thinking alot. I miss you alot.

it's october

day : friday
date : 25th Sep
conclusion : I purposely set the date & time to be post on 1st Oct.

tuh 'orangsss' kasi spoil picture.
I KNOW I'M AWESOME! babe, you can't deny it.


JUST FOR MY BABY HAZEL, wabs pun wabs lah. i know you love me more for the fucking surprise :)


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I GOTTA FEELING THAT TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT& we did have fucking awesome one ; thanks bitch fat tuut to send me home haha. now no more enjoyment, you'll see more dead body lying around with junkfood in the library more often, or is it everyday? D:

while this one used to be for special someone&still do :)