my bitch boyfriend

planned for a surprise but when he told me that he was going to 1b then I got to kasih koyak. he ditch me awhile to 1b for 2 freaking hours. Hazel sedang bergete with Izak so I don't want to "disturb leaf" them GAH! but then saw Angel when I was freaking alone and on the phone with Hazel. Went around and talked with Angel, one of my fencing friend. DUDE!!! I MISS FENCING!!!! I MISS DOING SPORTS!!! I MISS BEING AN ATHLETE?! haha can't believe I said that but yeah whatever stupid back ache still on thats the REAL MAIN REASON you don't know the pain so SHUDDUP (: She told me how she and him end up omg man so damn freaking bitch oh his ex WHICH is my friend too -.- Spent kinda 1 hour with her. Leave her with her boyfriend dating&&went to meet up with Hazel&Izak. Talked talked talked gay gay gay lipgloss lipgloss lipsgloss shades shades shades OH FINALLY my bitch boyfriend. Double date at waterfront because the guy "needs something relaxing" mmmbah whatever asalkan can spend time with my sayang pun okey already (: 

he called me just to say ily&goodnite (: muah to you boyfriend :*

nasib dady didn't tiao me HAHA will post up a stupid video later on. now sleepy so ciao~

forever possible (:

omg i love him HAHAHA

he's wearing my new shades :D:D

his face :o

ipar aku nih

ciaos bonita (:

tagged

Precious tagged me

-Rules :
- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you .
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people

orange = me
green = maybe
blue = what do you think?

red = definitely NO

i am a NOVEMBER child.

Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

i tag: ANYBODY

new blog skins

new blog skins muah!

&&

i realised there's no tittle for this blogskins hmph nevermind -.-

jared isaac <3

I can’t promise you forever but I’m hoping for forever

I will totally summon him for making me feel this way again. It's not fair, I hate it. But at the same time I’m falling for him so badly, which I thought I would never felt this way again BUT he made it turn way around. He is boring, he is totally lame but that’s why I like him. I stand up for the first time for this, I can’t wait for another failed dream. Yes, I like him&I made him remember that every second. I’m taking it slowly now because I don’t want to end up like other relationship which makes me think so far&&yet it end so fast :’( It ain’t that easy BUT I’m still trying. Well, I’d got to thanks someone(2 someone) which kinda make this relationship happen. HAHA

I love my boyfriend (:

first date and it when okey. no photos because I'm too lazy(no)

love is a strong word

♥28012009♥

i went to penampang clinic today to PLUG MY LEFT TOE NAIL OUT. got ingrow inside it, I can't take it anymore because I'd already forcing my self to tahan the pain so I'd my decision to plug it out the whole toe nail omg. During injection, I was there screaming inside BUT keep on punching the wall. HAHA I don't want to shout dammit, so embarassing BUT I did keep on saying OMG zillions of time until the attendant there also laugh HAHA well, at least it doesn't keep the situation seeing my toe nail injected stressed, right? Take a deep breath&&PHEW~ It's done. I saw my toe nail which got ingrow punya&&I talk to it like "SO YOU LAH TUH KAN?ISH!" haha, they laugh AGAIN lmao them :P:P I kept my toe nail. I saw many blood flowing after they plugged it out. Geli? no. hehehehehehehe. 

Main point for today, is the ♥ story

Well, basicly I think I'm getting more brave now. Gah, perasan? YES HAHAHAHAHAHA. whatever. So, James told me something on msn, which make me panas with JI. So I sent JI a sms, which going to make everything clear. So he did made it clear TOO ♥ 

omg, I made promise one thing after one whole day sms-ed. I'm not going to write the whole story here. because I just don't want to make it a big deal either (: *chika muah! I like him thats it, full stop DOT DOT DOT.  

the beautiful pain,f*

hazel, this is not from interrrnet -.-

junior

dadddeeeyyy

telipok room I LOVE ITTT!!!

ciaos bonita (:

wrinkles never dies

joy:

c   d   em    d

           c                   d

do you still remember

             c                              d

the perfect summer of me and you?

                     c

How I wish it could last long

                   d

last long for me to not

           c                     d

to not know the truth

          G

can't believe it's over

          D

valentine is only me

             Em

knowing that she's still standing

                    C

unmoveable in your heart

G                       D

it's hard to except

Em          C

you had lied (x3)

              Em      D

from the start

chorus:

              C                 D

so, im leaving you now (she's leaving you)

           C                  D

I could just accept it (oh no, she can't)

 C                    D

because the fact

Em                  D

had just killed me (just killed her)

                        C                 D

oh,she's leaving you now (yet, not forever)

    C                                                D

she's dead in your memory (living in my memory)

    C                 D

but it's time to say (no, i don't wanna say it)

Em                       D

goodbye, goodbye (she had won)

    C                 D

goodbye, goodbye (we better off this way)

jess:

                   C                 D

while she's trying to move on

                          C                 D

the lullaby was playing on the radio

           C

and pulled her in again

               D

tears start flowing

                        C                          D

yet she could just smile and walk away

                      G

she can't believe it's over 

                 D

valentine is only her

                 Em

knowing she's still standing

                   C

unmoveable in your heart

               G                        D

it's hard for her to accept

Em          C

you had lied (x3)

                               Em D

to her from the start

[rep cho]

#

                         C                 D

I wish I could just turn back time

                  C                 D

doing what's best for you

                               C

letting you be my sweetest memories

                          D

that shall not be blew away

              Em                              D

but now I(she) got to to this

[rep cho x2]

this story is about a guy, 1st girl&2nd girl. lemme name them:

guy - david

1st girl - jo

2nd girl - allisa

so the story goes this way:

david&jo were a couple for a few months. then after that david dumped her. NO, it's was not for girl BUT it's because he thought jo was not that good enough for him. So, after a moments they both broke up, david met up with allisa. he's in love with her, so they both couple up. but somehow in between, david realise that jo still standing in his heart&yet he couldn't gave the same power of love he had gave to allisa while he's with jo. david started getting cold to allisa, while allisa still holding on with her hope tight. BUT, later on she found out about it. so, she decided to move on. because it's hurt thinking that david is thinking about her&at the same time thinking about jo too. she's too hard to be moved in his heart. 

she had to say goodbye though there's hope goodbye is still the choice because she know she is unmoveable in his heart (:

the end.

ciaos bonita (:

Directions:Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you.At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog.You can't tag the person who tagged you.Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. I think I've done this taggie before, nevermind.
2. I got a band named "wrinkles never dies" with jessieca.
3. I cut my own hair.
4. I got my right toe nail plugged off TWICE
5. dance is my drugs.
6. started to have migrain since last december&shit it's spelled OUCH?
7. Actually I do care what people say about me although I've tried so hard NOT TO.
8. I'd chosen CAMERA OVER HANDPHONE (god,i miss my baby camera)
9. My wall seems too colourful? because I drew it.
10. YOU HAVE TO KNOW THIS : I'd live at Keningau for 12 years, moved to KK when I was 12(during school holiday),started schooling at Kian Kok&changed school when I was form 4 to Convent.
11. I used to be a "kawaii' person&I really hates it when I thought of it. ew~
12. oh,current addiction HIM(: J.I. i like him i like him i like him you can't have him because i like him (:(:
13. i loveeeee HEART SHAPE
14. I'm sucks on high heel.I got nightmare on high heels
15. I support local indie band.yeah,so what lah?
16. I'm either choosing medication or accounting as the future. others? photographia mi amor.
    

I tagged:

Hazel B - because i think she's done this taggie before

jess - because she's my band mate

Hazel R - I wanna know MORE of her weirdness

Aqila - i miss her HAHA i dunno why

is your favourite colour is blue?

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you

yes,his favourite colour is blue.yes I really do like him so so so much ESPECIALLY his LAME side. whatever I like it (: been sms-ing with him&&chika muah! whatever again. I like him, muah! note that (: oh,migrain strike again so I'm not going to continue whatever it is here. I like YUNA, sarah introduce me that band. oh-em-gee she is so fucking nice oh!bitch in tudung lagi that.i wish i got a nice voice like here hmmph nevermind. so,I've finished the song for duet with jessieca my muah band mate.so i'm thinking that now since im not that good eaither with Zeda so I've done a guitar duet with jess. next post will be about the lyrics and the story behind it.so ciao for now.i like MY PUKIMA muah!

ciaos bonita (:

wtf wtf wtf!!!!!

it's aint that big news anyway just a little to share on my excitement OMG hahahahahha. erm,well finnaly got a text from him? (: smile *chika muah!

i know i love her

my sayang Ameera Tiara Ayub Aman

i lap you

i sayang you

only you i menggete with

only me you can menggete with

muah muah muahhhhhhhhhh~ HAHAHAHAHAHA

even Qay can't rebut you from me

im so gay 

im effin gay because i blog about you

im gay because you made me gay

im gay && she is gay because we both like him

we like until we STALK him

wants his bloggie?

neh, www......xangaaaa...../imnottellingyouhisbloggiesmileyface

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

enjoy her gay pictures (:

oh, i give up :(

muka baru bangun (8.31 am)

took few shots before my anak heads off to Kinabalu Park. I'm freaking bored today just sms with her until she reached Ranau, Damn, the weather is hot. I mean here at KayKay. CFC surely getting used more&more this few days. Hairdresser should be summoned by now. NO LAH what a lame joke -.- Didn't went for morning mass. Had my youtube session. Yo senoritas! I'm really bored. I'm not going to sms him nor reply him because I'm panas with him. So what lah?! (: HAHAHAHAHA  What topic again? oh yah, my anak should get into the history book because of her love story. Suddenly mentioned about him AGAIN(imh,hmmmph) suddenly about FAT suddenly about the girl which I practilly can't even remember her face ONLY in photos but real life? ugh, NO?! &&anak, SHE'S NOT MY BESTFRIEND :D:D:D Junior went out to centre, I'm at home with mom. Nevermind, at least I can spend time with mom. Dad was busy with his studies at UMS right now. 

my makeup case had lost :'( it's lost during sports day. SUMPAH SUMPAH SUMPAH CIRIT BIRIT MUNTAH MUNTAH WHO STOLE IT!!!!!!!  so I just use lipstick as my blusher&&DUH and lipstick also lah. Now, I've got to spend my money to buy new makeup stuff. How membazir :'( Now I'm starting to miss my camera. My camera is like my forever boyfriend you know. I call my camera HIM, don't you dare to call my camera IT. NEVER!!!!!!!!! I repeat again NEVER!!!!! Going to kumpul money to buy digital camera 1st. Big camera? Later on, because I know there's going to be better one next time. What more to update here? I want to say to one of my adik kesayangan Meryl Lim. Darling, Izah was right you know? I don't know if you guys still on the drama or not because I was lazy to care you know? Darlings, people will have a different thoughts if they saw it you know? I don't know lah. I love you sis (:

i give up on him

i miss you

another alone valentine

such a failure oh me 

HAHA

ALLAN GAY!!!!!!!! HE DON'T WANT TO MARRY GIRL!!!! NOOO!!!!!!!!

OH!!!!!!!!

i might be going to Telipok tomorrow,bringing mom to have a look or even stay a day or two nights there. text me if ya bored (: 

010-9400032

ciaos bonita (:

a new perspective on cheerleaders.

i was in my living room today examining the cuts and bruises on my arms and legs when i realized something: CHEERLEADING IS HARD.

i could be one of the first to tell you that i'm a fan of sports. i'm not into any sport. so each year, for sports day in my school (for most of us who aren't athletes who joins track, etc etc), there'll be two choices. cheerleading or marching. and i always go for the latter. cos hey, it's like walking. just uniformed. and harder. i mean, have you seen the marchers practicing under the hot sun to be perfectly uniformed with one another? and besides, in my mind, only the girly girls join cheer. what with their micro minis and booty shaking.

oh was i so wrong.

for it was in cheer that i had endured two weeks of the most painful training i have had since i came into high school. (and no, i did not join cheer on my own free will btw. we have keshia and cathaline to thank for that).

so anyway, let me start with the most basic moves. it is to put your arms together at your chest, thrust arms forward,come back, do a diagonal while keeping knuckles together, do a normal diagonal and reverse it. sounds complicated, but it's not. truth be told, that's possibly one of the simplest move in cheer. but here's the kicker, you have to do it in tune with 24 other girls. not only that, it's done at super speed. and over and over and OVER again until your arms feel like their about to fall off.

and THAT, is the easy part.

being one of the taller, bigger girls in the team, me and a few friends of mine made base. which just means we had to go about carrying people. i really thought it'd be easy. i mean, please. 4 people at the bottom of the pyramid, 2 on top, and 1 girl at the very top. should be easy right? NOT.

i've said this once and i'll say it again: I WILL NEVER EVER UNDERESTIMATE CHEERLEADERS EVER AGAIN.

oh.did i mention AS we are carrying these girls on our backs like a pack of mules (or having them step on your thigh/ shoulder/ palm), we have to memorize and shout out a cheer especially made for our school/ team? you try that and tell me how it goes.

and that, is just about cheer moves, stunts and chants. let us now move on to DANCE.

here's a thought, how can you say i'm not trying to move my body when i'm utterly incapable of moving said body part? how can you 'shake' something that does not wanna be 'shook'? you tell me:) we need to be soft enough to shake and forceful in movement. we need to be in tune with the music and the other 24 girls in the team. what what whatt?

too. many. things. to. focus. on.

so don't come to me saying that 'left, right, left, right' is the harder activity cos i will kick your sorry ass. it has been left, right, left, right since centuries ago. so what poor deluded thoughts have i been (and i'm sure MANY students are still) harboring thinking that marching even comes CLOSE to the hell that is cheerleading?

but at the end of the day, i have nothing but respect for all the cheerleaders. they find good music, great dance moves, stuff for pom poms, designs for the uniform, make sure the girls are in line, in order, and uniformed with each other. it's harder that it looks.

so here i stand today paying tribute to convent cheerleaders. telling people how underestimated cheerleaders at our school really are. even by students like me. cos at the end of the day, what is it that people really remember about sports day? it's only the marching and cheerleading competition that leaves a deep impact in their minds. so really, i really do believe that the teachers really DON'T give us enough credit. don't you think so?:)

Debra Debbie Allison.

i can't believe it's my senior year

&& it's only January but I'm being so emotional here

i don't want to leave school

i'll miss every little things

even the annoying people

because I know that there won't be another annoying people i'll met out there HAHA

respect to all the cheerleaders this year&& TO THE CAPTAIN TOO! which is

1. RAJVIN KAUR - fokker house

2. ALICE AMANDA MICHEAL- jet house

3. PETRENE SUSANNA - comet house

&&

4. LUCYNDA JOEY - boeing house

they had made a blast perfomance in such a nick of time.

there were no time that they got a relieves UNTIL the real sports day

all captain had made their best of the best of FULLBLASTED best this time

like what Debra said to me "sedih oh kaw tida masuk convent awal-awal"

I KNOW!!!!!!!!

nevermind, things happened for a reason.

ciaos bonita (:

fyi

to zeda darling,

i don't hate you
i never hate you
i seriously mistaken by clicking the delete button from my permission to read this blog list
i respect your decesion in everything you do
i don't talk to you
nor look at you
because i'm lazy(no offense)
i just don't know how to start talking to you (HAHA)
god, i just want to be normal&&treat you normal.
we're friend,always do.

(:

kenangan Boeing

countdown to my final sukan tahunan :'(

THE PHOTOS TALKED AGAIN (:

Chapter 1(2 days b4 sukan tahunan):CAR ATTACK!!!!

both of us were sitting on their legs :D

I'm sitting on her AND she say I'm ringan(wth,im not)

Hazel R&Queenny had to be stuck at the car bonet because no more space left :P

monday,went to karamunsing by car BUT got to stuck in 9 people in a small car. Hazel&Quenny had to be fitted at the car bonet because there aren't any space left . Ate lunch&bought easyware. Me, Talie&Manda heads to Segama while I gave my work for a while to Meryl&Totsie them to teach them the new moves. Warn them if I reached school&they still haven't catch the steps yet am going to punish them like shiats. So went to segama to buy party poppers&went to merdeka to buy whistle. So thats when I got this call from Hazel which she's saying that tomorrow she's going to start school at Convent. HAPPY FULLBLAST! Reached school&was pissed with Jeniffer because she didn't show up for practise&&I called her&kicked her out. BUT it ended up I got to let her in AGAIN. shiatsssness whatever.

chapter 2: MY FINAL SUKAN TAHUNAN :'(

cheerleading got number 3. hmmph whatever. I'm expecting Fokker to win&Raj expecting Beoing to win BUT IM RIGHT. whatever it's already over. hahaha. this is my 1st time organizing such a great amount of people in such a nick of time. all of the ideas doesn't came only from me but from all of them MY BELOVED CHEERLEADING CROUP. Hazel got the video of us and it's totally totally NEAT freako. Really worth it to torture them every single day with my mad mouth&mad attitudes. number 3 not bad also lah (: my year was last year, this year is another luck of them. Kalina did our make up. it's nice yo!!!!! heheksss~ I malas wanna cakap about whose number 1 to 3 I FUCKING DIDNT JOIN ANY RUN THIS YEAR!!!! MENYESALLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( FINE whatever waheburrr~ sedih. oh, enjoy the picture&&there were more at peoples blog or fb or fs maybe.

angela&rachel showing their ass off&sarah?no comment :p

seperwemen

under the hot hottie sex sun

Chapter 3: likas stadium-tsung tsin-kian kok

i miss them really really really much. Me, Hazel&Kalina went to Tsung Tsin BY WALKING from Stadium Likas. Kalina "TIDAPA, kita 3 athlete bah" SOT, wth my muscle is getting bigger&&I didn't even join running or maybe it was because to much walking? HAHAHA. Reached Tsung Tsin met MALINA LOO AI MEI!!! DAMNN!!!! like gila 1 year like that or even few months baru can wait. oh wait, I LIKE UNPLANNED ACTIVITIES because what you didn't axpected to see could happen LIKE THIS ONE! I FINALLY MET MALINA!!!! hahahahahahah. damn happy oh. chit chated a while&&after that we're heading to Thai Seng which is the line of kedai near Kian Kok. Ate bun&waffles then finally made this choice to go to Kian Kok to give them my MUAH ex school mates a surprise visits since it's only a few minutes to their school time out. Damn, Malina "BIKIN TAKUT OH MASUK NIH SEKOLAH" Me "I KNOW!" Maline "MACAM ADA SUMPAHAN HANTU OH KAN!?" hahahahhaa. But , we made it through to the 4th floor. We're wondering where's the class would be. Suddenly there were this one girl looking strangely at Malina with the finger pointing pointing suddenly SCREAM "ARGHHHH!!!!!" &&saw me again &&scream "ARGHHHH!!!!!!!" &&she hugs hugs hugs us then ran to the class&&shout shout shout&&people from window tengok tengok&&ya. HAHA it was really damn funny. I miss them alot HAHAHAHAHAHAHA&&that girl who is screaming is CHIA HEN YEN&&she made everybody says to me these few lines "you tall already oh, 2 cm lah" "wow,you look taller already 2 cm" wtfm whats up with the 2 cm???? HAHAHAHA.

chapter 3: we walked under the rain&&we're not fucking emo.

was suppose to just wait for bus in front of Kian Kok with friends. BUT ended up the bus come really early&&I have to hug them reallllly reallly fast&&run with Hazel to catch it. HUUUssshhh~~ nasib can. I miss them oh! :'( It's started raining, so daripada go cp better go to Karamunsing. Me&Hazel were running under the rain you know, sambil nyanya "run baby run, don't ever look back!!!" were not emo like "I like to walk under the rain because no one sees me crying,WTF" HAHAHAHAHAHAA. Bought the small towel at Signature&&went to the toilet for dries up. DUDE! Karamunsing toilet don't have the hand dryer??? I thought I could use it for drying my hair shiats. whatever. The aunty toilet asked "dayang(wtf), hujan di luar?" HAHAHA whatever (: went&walk around Karam for awhile. We rest at Coffeebean GAH thats place yang last time punya. chat chat chat crap crap crap pictures pictures pictures. Said to Hazel I WANT HIM hehehehehe whatever. Hazel ciaos sudah left me alone at coffeeebean. Hazel warn to NOT TO FALL ASLEEP but I don't care. I slept for like 3o minutes I think. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA lucky dad called. So went home. I love today. muah.

ciaos bonita (: