add maths project loves button.

ivaaaaaaa~~~~ here it goes.

http://forum.one-school.net/viewtopic.php?f=245&t=493&start=0&st=0&sk=t&sd=a

plastics is hiding those lies.

all those lies you both had been hiding from me. all those face you both had been pretending to me. it's all seems to be black and white to me already.

Do you want the truth? Or the little white lie that makes you happy?

that was for you both already ((: from this post I've been wondering why do you both need to do that? why don't you both seeks the truth and just understand? why do you both have to twist the story for some reason? why do you both need to act like you care? maybe it's just because you both it's fun. it's just how you both wants it to be like what you both did in your stories. i hope you both are reading this, because it's hurt so much to think about it (: life ain't easy girl, you think you both got the strength compare to mine? beat me. I may not have the superb brain like you both but what I know I got is the strength which makes me look NORMAL although something changed. if you both? you both had been living in a perfect one life and don't go to me and complain because I'm sick of it (: just think about those who don't have the perfect lifes as what you both have. think please darling (: oh, and next time when you want to started the bombing mouth speak for yourself first. muah, i love you both.

ciaos bonita (:

feeling bright new?

something to show about :)

disbeliefed.

bitch eyes. It doesn't look like me at all. OMG that's so not Lucynda Joey man. First time wearing contact it's not that spelled any comfits for me but the second day I could get used to it 79.9% already HAHAHA

laptop was updated to Windows 08' and it's such a beauty to my laptop. I like feeling new stuff, new smell. I get boring to stuff superbly. But thank god not with him, i love him (:

just got text, HAZEL AT TAMAN RIMBA!

so anyway~ tomorrow is the 3rd month. wow, time flew that fast eh. Ameera was absent today and she didn't replied my text. even last night one when I texted her "AMEERA!!! the moon tonight so preety oh kan?" well she didn't replied that last night and even today one :( i miss her WUAAAAAAAA!!! T.T whhereeee yooouuuuu~ so now I'm at my dad's office studying bitch chemistry HAHAHA going to study for History today. I planned to skip school on Wednesday and go to my dad's office to study hahahaha sounds weird but well I can't study at school and as well house. I need pressure from somebody. haih~ my mom lah yang gave me that inertia but now kan. Haihhh~ nevermind lah hehehehe.

i miss malina :( she texted me yesterday but I snoozed off so conversation was blocked -.-

ciaos bonita (:

to the universal peepss.

YUNA = MAINSTREAM. pffttt. sigh -.-

my dad likes me dressing in dress or skirts rather than short pants or jeans. ouh ya, duh. of course i like to wear dresses BUT the problem is IM LAKE OF IT nnghh~ it's very rare for a dad to say that to the daughter, and my dad did that. he likes me to have short hair, he likes me wearing dress which NOW I'm trying to let my hair long becausseee I miss this hair :

mt. kinaballuuuu~ here I come! 

can't believe was long and curled 2 years ago and now, it's short and short. can't wait for it to get long ((: dad think that short hair suite more with me, so what's in my mind right now was~ letting my hair long first and fixed it to be "so not long and short hair" hahahaha :DD you don't have to get it ((: 

today was M.A.K. (majlis anugerah kecermelangan) so I straighten Pearly hair which ruined in the end too due to the "kedegilan" of her hair. so who cares~ help people to fix their make up, hairs and stuff. gosh, teachers makeup touch was so terrible! PINK EVERYWAY!!!!! GOSH!!! they even make Ameera looked like slapped before :O Hazel didn't make it to M.A.K. -.- so I was alone BUT I did something to entertain myself which is taking peeps shoots with Iva's camera. My face was rarely inside it :DD 

Went to Citymall for lunch then library. it's a tiring day eh~

smoochieesss.

my kepo twins,jordiiiii.

my gay twinsss,meeraaa ((:

she's the star;i'll be the rocket.

meera;me

fooooood.

foooooood.

fooooooood.terus the food tida datang nampak her face :D

citymall.

ciaos bonita (:

if a song could get me you.

shanunnbahweh shanunbahweh :D

So here it is, here it goes 

I could try rock and roll  

I would change your life forever too  

If a song could get me you  

I could make it high or low  

Sing it on the radio  

If that is what I need to do  

If a song could get me you .

iva looveeessss daydreaming ((:

ciaos bonita (:

protected.

Take a photograph, it'll be the last, not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here. I don't have a past, I just have a chance, not a family or honest plea remains to say.Rain rain go away, come again another day, all the world is waiting for the sun.

used up all the money in my phone, text will be left unreplied. no tution for sunday already ((: changed to thursday. darn it, it will be tiring. oh well, at least I could go out on sunday without any worries. laptop left up there, using pc now. so, no msn overhere. malas download to pc :p exam is in 2 more weeks time, no jokes. getting serious over here AND i haven't done my moral&&add maths project pfftt. busy busy~ i don't think I want to accept that perfomance thinggy althought it's paid. STUDY!!!! Pembentangan for Seteguh Karang haven't started anything yet too. Corine going to kill me :o i better go now.

Hazel, i love your cousin no matter what :))

CIAOS BONITA (:

it's a new melody.

"Who shot that arrow in your throat?

Who missed the crimson apple?

It hung heavy on the tree above your head."

bloody hell - rupert grint spelled l.o.v.e.

lazy to update much. time was packed with study study study now. grrrr. no choice. lifeteen camp is still in my maybe list because I can't waste anytime for enjoyment anymore. sniff sniff. nevermind. i miss him :(  english oral is tomorrow. last minute preparation for the text. darn it, hopi I wouldn't screw up anythin. ngh~ OUH, today was Jennifer sweet 17. nop, no license yet. Absent for 2 days in a row for school. Monday - tired because of bakat interact, Tuesday - Mom 40 days. Kinda bored yesterday and tiring because got to prepared the food lalala~ During prayer, the priest speech was touching. But I controled myself not to cry haha. 

"I was impressed. During the day at church, the church was full with people. I'm wondering who is she. Because even the muslims goes to the church to gave their last respects." 

she maybe not a Datuk or even a boss. but she's somebody that changed someone lifes. even just a touch of her, it could make a big different. damn, i miss her so much right now. But life still have to move on (:

ciaos bonita (:

whatever.

so, convent lose heh. nevermind, this year was a seriously damn tight competition. every school was giving their own bestest and walah. Maktab won, and please lah I think the dancing sucks,pfft~ but the band is who made their victory won gahaha. whatever, i don't care also nyek nyek. The Maktab band made thier anchor. Jude: "La Salle and Convent friends bah (sambil doing the hand thinggy to me) we sama2 dapat consolation prize". buh. HAHAHA. it's true :D

before perfomance, malcom said something to me and makes me wants to cry but I cant to control HAHA i love malcom so much HAHAHA somehow that convo makes me feel better when I perform (:

during the special perfomance, me, sayang&james were outside. the legs seems heavy to go inside there. GAH. went to 1b after that, because I was freaking hungry and actually made them annoyed by me because I kept on repeating the same thing over and over again "I'm hungry lets go~hungry hungry hungry~". ended up we had to run to catch our bus HAHA stupid sayang shouting like orang gila, stupid -.- 

i hate my leg muscle :( f.

"when it all turns to blake and white, nothing seems printed forever. but it's forever in the heart - joy"

meet my everything

meet my enemy

meet the HOT friends

meet Talie.

meet Ling. <3

meet Laine. partner in crime

meet Jennifer.

ciaos bonita (:

nothing last the most.

FUCK FUCK FUCK IM BROKE!!!!!!!! LEFT 3 RINGGIT IN MY DOMPET!!!!!!!! OUH SHITTT!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!! WHAT DID I DOOO??????? OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! james also broke lah :D:D

clueless.

you don't know anything about me, f off kids (:

damn you kids. shut your f mouth. you clueless about this. don't cross the line, because you're trying to, you're my lovely little cute friend, you don't know who you're playing with and YOU! if he changed. it's not my fault, he who made the choice to do so. be what you are is what I said. don't blame me darling, muah. youS don't know what I'd been through, youS don't know how struggling am I. Better be silent, don't start the crowd.

freakshow.

"Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own"

Seems like the days will come few more days. 2 more days to go!!!!! darn it! hope it will goes like what we'd planned. :O after a months of practicing, spending our time, sacrificing other stuff, just for the sake of the dance, i hope it really do work. I'm gonna miss the team after this. struggle struggle struggle plusss Puan Wee~ ugh never mind. we'll make it through it (: 

"You are the reason that I breathe 
You are the reason that I still believe 
You are my destiny, 
Jai Ho!  
(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us
Nothing can ever come between us 
So come and dance with me, 
Jai Ho!" 

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

angel

angel

i had a dream of you 

i can't defined

you've been on my mind

don't go

i'll be lost without you by my side

lost and on my own

i fall for an angel

angel

you're brightest star is shinning next to mine

every night and day

you know

star exploded and they fade away

then they fade away

i fall for an angel

would you please be my baby

come by and i'll lay you down

i love you and i'm saying i love you too

won't you please be my homie

i'm sorry that I let you down

your eyes are breaking my heart in two

angel 

may the one above us keep you save

for the rest off day

if he knows

how I love the smile of on your face

i'd like you here to stay

i'm falling for an angel

-Atilia

ciaos bonita (:

great escape

no mood 

migraine strikes again

I haven't bath yet

it's 10:44

I wish I could have my own di-e-eh so called "great escape"

but I can't

I got my own life to solve

live with it

trauma still stuck with me

live with it

im freaking tired 

live with it

my eyes are damn red

live with it

BLAH

I thought I could get this over as easy as I can. no,you don't understand. don't force yourself to show your careness, because you don't (: because I'm a human&your a human too. i know how your feeling towards stuff. even how hard I tried to make it hide behind the shades but I can't. I got no shoulders to cry on. no shoulder. the past, i will go home and tell her. the present, i will go home and stuck in the room crying alone. tell me how do you feel (:

ciaos bonita (:

Tun Dr. Mahathir Muhammad

“if u looks at the history of the west, they come out wit all kinds of ideology, they use it for some time, and then they found it defective, they dropped it and start on another."

"Why Sains & MATHS SHOULD be in English"

1. Saya ingin jelaskan sekali lagi kenapa Sains dan Matematik perlu diajar dalam bahasa Inggeris.

2. Tidak seperti matapelajaran lain, sains dan matematik adalah ilmu yang berkembang dan bertambah sepanjang masa.

3. Tiap hari berpuluh kertas melapurkan hasil kaji selidik yang dibuat di seluruh dunia. Hampir semua kertas ini disediakan dalam bahasa Inggeris.

4. Kita boleh terjemah sains rendah kedalam bahasa kebangsaan. Tetapi ini tidak akan menolong kita memahami teori dan aplikasi advanced science dalam ciptaan dan pembuatan barangan yang canggih seperti alat telefon, senjata moden, roket dan stesyen satelit angkasa, pesawat terbang perang dan penumpang, kapal selam, laser, microcip dan ratusan lagi barangan kegunaan tertentu dan harian.

5. Untuk semua ini kita perlu sains yang canggih dan terkini hasil kajiselidik pakar ilmu sains seperti Albert Einstein dengan teori relativitinya, Enrico Fermi, Oppenheimer, Edward Teller, Werner Heisenberg dan lain-lain.

6. Saya boleh senarai seribu nama lagi dan berpuluh ribu hasil penerokaan, pengkajian mereka yang tidak terdapat dalam bahasa Melayu namun ilmu ini peting untuk kemajuan kita.

7. Untuk memahami tulisan mereka dalam bahasa Inggeris kita memerlu kelulusan Phd dalam bahasa Inggeris dalam bidang-bidang khusus. Tidak ramai saintis yang belajar dalam bahasa Melayu yang boleh mengguna bahasa Melayu untuk tujuan ini. Setahu saya tidak ada banyak buku berkenaan tajuk-tajuk ini dalam bahasa Melayu.

8. Pengajaran sains perubatan menggunakan buku Inggeris walaupun syarahan dibuat dalam bahasa Melayu. Untuk post-graduate studies dalam pelbagai kepakaran perubatan bahasa Inggeris digunakan. Kalau ada pensyarah yang boleh bersyarah dalam bahasa Melayu dalam bidang-bidang pakar ini, mereka akan terdiri daripada yang belajar kepakaran ini dalam bahasa Inggeris.

9. Mungkin ada yang belajar sains di peringkat rendah dalam bahasa Melayu dan mampu mengikuti syarahan dalam bahasa Inggeris diperingkat ijazah pertama. Tetapi untuk kelulusan yang lebih tinggi penguasaan bahasa Inggeris di perlukan.

10. Sudah tentu untuk ambil bahagian dalam seminar dan konferens antarabangsa, untuk berhujah, bahasa Inggeris di perlukan.

11. I was not ignorant for 20 years. Even after I realised the usefulness of English I had to wait until people also realised it. Otherwise they will fight tooth and nail to prevent the change from taking place. Even now they are fighting.

12. Singapore has progressed like a rocket because they have no opposition parties. Without criticisms by the opposition they will not know if they were doing something right or wrong.

13. Now Singapore is in deep recession because of having made investments in America. So they may use English for their education but they can still go wrong. But we want to use English only for science and mathematics and these two subjects are based on truths and logic - not on how clever you are in making decisions or explaining things.

14. I think in English when I want to speak or write in English. I think in Malay when I want to talk, write or discuss in Malay.

15. I am a Malay not because of the language I use when thinking or dreaming. I am Malay because ethnically, lingually, culturally and religiously I am a Malay and I regard Malaysia as my homeland.

16. Saya tidak ingin bangsa saya ketinggalan hanya kerana nasionalisme kita terhad kepada kefasihan bercakap dalam bahasa sendiri. Nasionalisme saya meliputi kejayaan bangsa saya yang setaraf dengan bangsa-bangsa lain di dunia. Jika untuk ini kita terpaksa menguasai bahasa Inggeris dan belajar sains dan matematik dalam bahasa Inggeris, sepertimana orang Arab belajar bahasa Greek untuk mendapat ilmu orang Greek, sepertimana orang Eropah terpaksa belajar bahasa Arab untuk mempelajari ilmu orang Arab pada kurun ke-15 Masihi, saya rela berbuat demikian.

17. Bagi saya mempelajari Sains dan Matematik dalam bahasa Inggeris tidak berbeza daripada menghantar penuntut kita ke Eropah atau negara-negara Arab untuk menuntut ilmu tertentu dalam bahasa-bahasa mereka. Mereka pergi sebagai orang Melayu dan mereka kembali dengan ilmu yang diperolehi juga sebagai orang Melayu. Mereka tidak menjejaskan ke-Melayuan bangsa. Sebaliknya mereka mempertinggikan maruah dan martabat bangsa.

By-Tun Dr. Mahathir Muhammad


another problems caused by the "golongan penentang ppsmi". I don't know who they are BUT they do had to know their are making a huge mistake of wanting to change the 2 main subjects to Malay. Like dude, wake up lah! Do you use SCIENCE in MALAY at CAMBRIDGE???? eh, ELLOOO????!!!!

ciaos bonita (:

another site of the world

what a stupid liar. she should be ashamed of herself. even his bestfriend called her liar. only god knows what's in her mind right now. why she's doing this? I don't really care BLAH 

so, the school was mad with us. well, not all. just for the people who don't wear the full uniform. whatever lah, kena teriak sini sana lalala~ whatever whatever whatever. I'm getting out from the school soon. I don't care. Good luck for the future~~~ lalala~ 

7 people stuck in a hilux. oh wow~ I can't barely move my leg and I can't look behind. Talie was siting on Raj laps but her bag was too big until she had to place her face near to the mirror. gagaga~ angela & mae was enjoying the rain. and raj driver weren't driving any faster -.- ughhh but anyway it was fun today. dance was 69.9% okay. Still have more to go~

didn't went for tution today because I'm so damn tired. GOSH. dady was kinda pissed because of that. after an hour he's okey with it (: 

i miss him oh. im getting crazzeeey heree :(

ciaos bonita~