ello ello elllllooooo!!!!

for some reason I want this blog to be deleted HAHAHA
i can't help it for having this gay mind HAHAHA
that freaking double D guy perasan to the max HAHAHA
i can't believe i got emo just because my friend broke up HAHAHA
i'm eating more and more this few days because my endometrium is going to splash soon HAHAHA
you hippo girl!!!asabiah!!!!!you made her end the relationship!!!you mean!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!she don't deserve all this.damnnnnn!!!!!!i kesian her oh :'(
that ginko supplement aunty alice bought made me hyper HAHAHA
sharmaine!!!!don't lah don't like perfume!!!!i smell nice bah :p HAHAHA
HAZEL I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm back normal sudah bah :p HAHAHA
GED I LOVE YOU!!!!!CAT!!!!!YOU TOO!!!COR!!!abit lah :p AMEERA TO THE MAX I SAYANG!!!!!!!! x) i'm glad god lemme met you 5.you never knew how much it meant to me x)
i'm going to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs at 7!!!!!!!!!!
damn 9 hours at ums tomorrow.
my sacrifying list better give me something for my spm!!!!!!!
what an awesome god we have, just listen to my playlist throughout my disappearing,kay?
i'm trying to make this my last post. amen.

SMELL YOU 3 MORE MONTHS LATER!!!!!!!!!!!

&&do you think i should adopt or get pregnant?ok,that's random x)

when the baby smiled.

for the last one,
SMILE FOR YOU!

despite all the things that had happened, despite all the promises i'd made to myself, i'm here again updating my blog :) i'm listening to "a mother's prayer" right now, Ged on this song in the car when we're on our back from lunch to library. such a wrong timing for my mood, got me cried like a river and suddenly cor played another song, and she said this "ironicly, this song's from p.s. i love you" man, she just like to see me crying hard bah HAHAHA but things was okey again, i love crying hahahaha i miss my mom bah :p don't blame me. i hate feelings, feelings killed me like thousand time. but hey, lucynda bah this. i'm still standing x) because of the mood, i preferred sitting alone in the library today. except when ling asked me to accompany her lah. stayed late again in the library for history papers tomorrow. when i'm on the way back home, there's this baby on the next car. i do the HI waving hand to her, and she hid herself, then she played with me. she did the 'teropong teropong' with me, and i did the same too, she placed her hand on the window, and i did the same too, she smiled at me and i winked at her. she's so cute :) although I don't know who's baby is that, but she actually made my day brighter.

somehow, i tend to make stupid promises to myself. promises about what to do and not to do. and now i'm making few stupid promises. i'm sorry if i don't reply any text anymore in the future because i tend to off my phone and leave it died itself.

every song is making me SICK! real SICK! it could drag me to the river of tears HAHAHA shiss. can i pity myself? is it wrong to pity myself? it's aching beautiful life :) muah. you know? when we're on the last hug, i wish that i could say i love you once more or maybe for the last time. but it's wrong to do so HAHAHA kill me for the thing i'm gonna act on real soon, i don't mean to do so but i wish welllll, just understand lah, kay? on the phone with her, crying on the phone with her. thank you for all the effort to make me calm. you're just the perfect shoulder to cry one, although you're skinny HAHAHAHA this feeling just going to last for today, 13th of october 2009. after that date, i'd promised myself to let it flow easily and don't think much anymore.

every word that i said, i meant it. every smile that i gave, it's sincere. every conversation that i'm in, im IN. i knew you too much. promise me you'll make her happy no matter what, don't care what i feel no more. i never regreted what i'd did because if i never did that action, you'll never meet that girl of yours and never realise that you actually got a chance to be with her. my action, made you realised it now. i got so much to say to you, but i think you know what i'm thinking. don't worry, i won't rub that thinggy off hahahaha x) or maybe i will :p no lah. just joking. lots lots lots of heats for you bastard <3

BYE BYE
poooof!

what hurts the most :')

What hurts the most

Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do.

because this heart will always be some space for you.

in a city of millions
everyone has their own LOVE STORY
from first LOVE
to LOVE denied
to everlasting LOVE
and everything in between.


fall in LOVE all over again



NEW YORK
I LOVE YOU

in fact, i still do.

"SHE'S FOREVER MINE. HAHA. CANNOT ESCAPE FACT!"
&&i wonder, will that really be forever from you? 3 am telling you how I miss you so much. Tsunami movie got me thinking alot. I miss you alot.

it's october

day : friday
date : 25th Sep
conclusion : I purposely set the date & time to be post on 1st Oct.

tuh 'orangsss' kasi spoil picture.
I KNOW I'M AWESOME! babe, you can't deny it.


JUST FOR MY BABY HAZEL, wabs pun wabs lah. i know you love me more for the fucking surprise :)


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I GOTTA FEELING THAT TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT& we did have fucking awesome one ; thanks bitch fat tuut to send me home haha. now no more enjoyment, you'll see more dead body lying around with junkfood in the library more often, or is it everyday? D:

while this one used to be for special someone&still do :)