you little damn snake.

my weekend for july.

is full of vain and boredom.

let me fly to november and finished it off.

and the boobies will leave so much memories.

it's getting near to august. im gear-ing up for studies now. no more jokes. few months to november, few months for him to go, few months to face this real stuff.

curly fries.

i found a guy on youtube this evening.

he's actually an addicting person.

he made me surfed for his video and listens to his voice over and over again.

he made me laugh out loud when he said
'actually i got a crush on aj rafael X)'

and he's name is idontwanttotellyouthename.

bring my sushi back to me please.

peanut butter sandwich cookie.

i miss this so much last year and suddenly i miss Qay too haha. She's a total liar if she told you that she don't miss him at all. The ego of her is too high, real high hahaha Even when i told her i love her she'll be silent and don't bother talking to me BECAUSE KEMBANG. teda guna punya kawan -.-

Getting better now except for the squeaky voice :/ I kept silent the whole day except for certain period. Other than that, I was sewing the patch work. they did so nice, with all the nice colour contrast. especially Jun Yi one. He helped Ged to do that and it really neat you know. surprising because it came from a GUY hand hahahaha respect lah junyi hahahaha B)

Kokum was nightmare for me because I totally forgot about all the stuff that i wrote inside my planner and suddenly Hazel found it. She scribble the 'ai xing zhuang' 'ta de ming zhi' 'wo shi lan na zhang zi'. Sometime Ameera will said to me "you know? I still tida biasa oh you like this (with her annoying face)" and i'll just smile at her hahaha no comment on that.

dear i miss you dear i miss you dear i miss you dear i miss you dear i miss you dear i miss you :( oh oh , i love you :)


that face mean:i get sick of joy for repeating this over and over again, she told me she loves sushi so much grrrr.

stories.

didn't went to school again. blame my fever this time :S i refuse to take antibiotic but seems like i got to lose to it this time. i got many stories in my mind right now. it came from all peeps who told me about their storylife and what i have seen myself too. i just feel like typing it and share to you peeps.

story 1 : dilemma?

my friend told me this, her sister(i'll name her chloe), chloe is studying in this one campus with her bestfriend ( i'll name her kim ). so okey, both of them is studying in the same campus. after few months, chloe started getting close to this guy( i'll name him mike ), mike and her pretty much spent their time together always. chloe had a boyfriend studying in kl, but well she knows that the relationship between mike and her got a boundary. kim knew that for sure that chloe wouldn't got herself falling for him. but somehow, the feeling grew slowly without them relising it. he knew that she got a boyfriend, but when chloe asked him if he got any partner or not, he told her that he got no one yet. many people told chloe that he got one, and asked her to be careful. well, in her mind 'why should i be careful? I don't like him. psssh'. Kim could see the intimation of them both is getting really really close. it's like they are more than just friend now. yet, she don't really care enough about it because that's her choice to be friend with anybody, alothough it's a guy.

so, their relationship just continue to be such way until the graduation day. on the end of the day, chloe and kim joined a group of friends to stay overnight together in this hotel. male and female slept in one room. while everyone is sleeping, chloe was sleeping too in the corner. suddenly she felt something warm touching her lips, and when she opened her eyes, guess who's that? MIKE, kissing her passionately and without thinking and willingly, she kissed him back to. they spent the whole night together. KIM WAS HALFED ASLEEP THAT TIME AND SAW THEM DOING IT. the next day was the last day they all going to be together. and POOF, nothing ever happened again after that. no contact at all.

it's weekend, chloe and the boyfriend was spending their time like ussual in the mall. suddenly she saw someone familiar, someone name MIKE. Mike is holding hand with this girl, they both past them while Chloe could just remain silent while mike just pretending not ever happen. he smiled at her, and he's gone again. practiclly, that's the end of them. hahaha. the end.

story 2 : letting go?

there's this happy family, husband&wife&a pretty lil daughter. life was beautiful at the starting line. the lil daughter ( athilia ) was 7 that time, she's just the same with other kids. love to scramble the stuff in the boxes if she felt something curious in it. she did that on this particular day, and found a picture. behind it, there's something written. the picture got this elegant girl with her wedding dress on. she couldn't got her curiousity out from her mind, she asked the mom, "mom, who's this? she pretty pretty oh! hahaha" the mom smiled at her and said " your dad will be marrying this girl if there aren't me " athilie went blur, and replied "oooooohhhh". she turned the picture again and read what's behind there "i'm sorry dear, i guess this is the end of us. i couldn't see you again and i can't seems to have the future with us together. love XXX" still blank with it, so she ran and asked her dad " dady!!!! who's this girl? " with a glance with the picture, he grabbed her daughter hand and took the picture, torn it into pieces and asked "where did you get this from!?" she's just a kids you dumb dumb, haih. she ran and no one ever questioned about the picture no more.

she turned 12 that year, and totally forgot the excistence of the picture. suddenly this one day she heard the mom was on the call with someone, she heard something " can you ask your wife to stop bothering my husband!? that's your wife, go and take care of her. she's pregnant. did you know about that!? why does she bother to tell my hisband and not you!?" athilia freaked out, this is too much. she shouldn't know about this stuff. she went into the room, and when dad was home, she just smiled at her. nothing could be spoken that time. stunned.

is it her who can't let him go or him? main point here is, even when you're married, you still cannot let something out of your brain. but somehow you got to move on, let the past be a memory that get you something that you have today.





so that's it for today. do you really read from start till the end? i'm wondering who does :D

i'm not ready yet.

sunday was not okey to me. it's dull to me :S even now i'm in my room with no light. suited my mood :O first thing i woke up is realising that i got sorethroat. blame junior and dad for giving me that. even having fever during church but i went around inanam then walk then sweat. reached home still fever then close the fan then cover my self with blanket then sweating then ok now. i'm trying hard to keep away the antibiotic from my medication or supplement. vitamins is ok already.

dear i love you (:

oh, i miss malina so much :'( i miss the old moment that we had spent. she told me that Janet is going UK next year. not so shock because she kinda told me about that or am i the one who got the feeling she's going? nevermind. so yeah, she's going and for this year, i barely see her :( even if yes, it's like a glance with a 'hi! i miss you! i got to go now! muah! love you!' i want to spend much time with everybody as much as i can. but it's like the situation i got now not really allowing me to do so. i passed my kian kok almost everyday in a week, feel like asking my dad to stop there for a while and run to their class and give everybody a hug and then chat for a while and then go to school. but seems like it's really HARD! bcause effin convent started school like 6.50 am!??? HMMPH! calm down lucynda calm down -.- i want to have my educational talk with Kang again. darn it, im wondering where is he going again :S Qing might be going ausi. everybody is leaving.

dear i love you (:

i don't feel like going school again but in order to keep the 'warning letter' away from my sight,i got to go. school sucks, i hate going to school. but oh well, i'm not going again to that freaking school next year, muah!

sushi sushi sushiiiiiiii.

pictures.

in the car.

we're married.

took this shot with jun yi's camera. darn, i want his camera :S

freshen up.

*makai? *mao makai?

7k was fun.walk then run with a camera at my neck then walk alone because they left me. but got a call from ged to ask me stop and join them. plan to eat at the restaurant but ged forgot her membercard.psssh.end up rooming around and i'm still excited taking picture with ged's boyfriend - jun yi, camera.

sushi, i promise you it's going to be all fine now. we talk, that was the first time we gotta chance to let out everything. damn, i love you :DD i'll stop what i should stop and i'll make it up to a better one. and people keep on coming when we're talking. envy our romantic moment meh? braham lah yg funny. i think the got something when i erm nothing.

yes, im back with him. live with it :D

is that her????

peristalsis worked,NOT.

that's the invitation for gathering of Project Malaysia 2008 (PM08). I miss them so much, although im not close to my mentor(jessica) but still she gave me something before she left hahaha. i wish i can go to the gathering but Yi Xiang might plan it at KL during this few months which I can't attend because of studies. erghhh. My god, I still remember Tuan. OH! and and and Ian. OH OH OH and Daniel. OH OH OH and the preety ladies Gianne and so on. pffft. i wish i could just turn back time and enjoy last year summer HAHA damn.

oh, hazel scott, you just wait for the post. i haven't take my picture with that face again :))

test over -check!
7k - check!
harry potter date - check!
spm - ugh,ARGHHHHHHH

thoughts to be put in words.

she woke up with a smile on her face. she knows what had happened last night. she knows that it's something incredible ever since the last day they both were in the same situation. pinching a tiny winy flesh from her tights. OUCH! she's not dreaming. from that second, butterfly started flying in her stomach. something felt weird, but at the same time excitement made her day for that morning.

walking through the street and suddenly she could hear the song repeating inside her head over and over again and she smile. *tweet tweet, she slide up her phone and read up the text. STOP! wait, there's something going on. shit, what on earth was she thinking? she sat on the bench while the busy old town people walking through her as she's invisible. POOF, she can't control it anymore. pressing the 'reply' button and typed 'i love you too.' something is running trough her head again, her thumb was playing with the 'send' button. *clicked. catching a breath sense of relief. that's what she wanted to do since the day.

never thought it will come back once more. the roads they both been through, is that just a pathway to make them meet again and stronger? will it last longer for them? question will be answer during the process. they learn from mistakes, woke up from falling.forgiveness is what needed in someone heart. once you forgive, it will make a whole lot different. in her mind, she just want to tell him that she's glad to be back. back once more. no regret but scared to move. scared to lose him again. fears trembling but love warm it up.

points.

1. 1. god is good all the time, all the time god is good.
2. first attempt on doing jazz song, it's challenging yet sounds lovely to me :)
3. Malaysian government sucks. I felt annoyed when they kept on reminding people how lucky are we living at Malaysia with 'pelbagai bangsa kaum' tralala. Dudes&dudettes, we know about it already so stop reminding because it annoyed me HAHA you know i know so keep hush, no need to boast about it :D
4. i love ameera.
5. i love hazel
6. i love geraldine
7. i love jordana
8. i love sushi
9. wondering when my bicycle going to come :D
10. happy six months to my boom and cina friend :)
11. i renewed my cbox because zeda and sharmaine told me that they can't post anything in there :o
12. my phone credit dried out. tomorrow morning i'll reload a.s.a.p.
    
13. stop looking at me weirdly. i'll roar you if you girls still doing the same stuff. HMMPH!
14. don't you ish me.
15. you know that nobody could replace you in my heart.not plkn guy, not 7k guy. only you standing still (:
16. commiting suicide is the dumbest decesion ever for a person to solve a problem.
17. i can't stop plucking my dried hair, and i'm still plucking it now :o
18. i love my dad. SO MUCH
19. junior dreamt of mom last night. i miss her so much. i love you mom. forever and always be. MUAH!
20. i'm scared about the application to Matriks. oh shit, i'll try to pay next monday :S
21. i miss fencing :( i miss puteri, jehan, rick, aaron, adam. all the fencing buddies! urgh.i wonder how coach doing right now? i miss him haha
22. i miss malina :( i miss caroline.
23. urgh shits, why am I missing everybody all of a sudden?
24. one bitch knocked down on wednesday :)
    
25. i'm still wondering why you should scared of me? don't gimme your innocent smile. it won;t help eaither. TALK girl.
26. my tights freak me out HAHA
27. why thursday you have to play ball?? ISH!
28. pearl jam songs defenitely a must listen emo songs HAHA
29. my brother is reading 'Absolute boyfriend' gay!
30. i'll upload another new songs on the next post (:
    

muah loves.

"No man who smokes daily can be said to be at any time in perfect health."—John Hinds

obsession.

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that they’ll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that they’ll be gone too,
too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree, now

hello july.

hazel : how can you live without tv? :O

haha,it's July now and there's bitched outhere who's searching for my monkey roaring haha especially Easther. Whatever lah. Watched Ice Age 3 and it's awesome to the max. I love looking at Peach SUPER DUPER CUTE! grrrrr. BITE BITE. Just now was sports carnival, didn't join anything. surprise surprise. i think someone said that to me 'bukan kaw minat sukan meh?' pffft.hell yeah. condition not okai yaw! so none already loh. i'm getting phobic here when I see my tights. shits.

i feel sick, my eyes swollen again. ugh, hazel kiss my eye again eh. shit.

picture of you and me (:

jun nee haha YAW!

rosemary.

best bitch muah i love you so much muah muah muah,hazel :) hahahaha

better conversation.

this story suddenly came across my mind after i had a dream about it or maybe thoughts? whatever. it's like when you're having this best conversation ever with a person which you haven't met for a decade :D and you don't want that moment to stop, your heart is beating fast, it's like that person is the sugar for your rush -.- wtf. but it didn't last that long, the next thing you know, that moment of the best conversation ever had just POOF went away. Ameera asked me why should the momentos hilang, well because i want it to sound TRAGIC. but she's still with the face "WHYYYY???" so, when i was asleep during english class when wathing la perla, i woke with a blur face and all of a sudden said to Cor, "can you write a lyric with the title BEST CONVERSATION?" she went blur but in the end she wrote it. so! another new song coming up (:

i just want my song to be sing to the world bah.

OKEY suddenly i got mood for love quotes this. haha i think it's because one of my friend told me her story with her boyfriend which makes me jealous :D but kan, im single and ameera jealous about it :p who cares. okey, lets go on to my favourite love quotes for now.

baby, i can't promise you forever but i'm hoping it's forever.

just say that 3 words i know you're thinking.

girls: who am i to you?
guys: you were my lifes story.

would it kill me to say i love you once again?

I still need you, i still care for you. Though everything's been said and done. I still feel you like i'm right beside,but still no word from you.

cause nothing in this world could match the beauty of love. fate is just the beginning of everything.