every little moment shall be cherish forever

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Dear 3rd week of August,

YOU'RE AWESOME.

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2 week had ended perfectly with a smoke, 3rd one coming soon. i love you august <3

little life

August, I wanna meet you sooner.

All we ever do is say goodbye.

John Mayer is on replay now.

You realized that when you think saying goodbye slash letting go is a pain in the ass than you thought, you'll try to find a route to solve the problem and finally in the end, you'll always end with a goodbye to it and finally it'll just drift away like how the wind moves by you. By the time, you won't even realize that it actually already left behind your mind and it'll just be one of the memories in your life.

We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.

Memories stays forever, but moving forward is a big step for every stair that you'll be taking in life.

you very own pathetic pleasure to be cut down soon and forever.

Sometimes, something that's just beyond your own capability of vision will happen and that'll be the time when you actually realized that existence of that colony is actually real and gasping is not an option to pick on the mean time anger rise for every thoughts that running with the surprise that given.

At a moment like this, you'll tend to choose either to act upon it or shut yourself down in the dark. Just be sure that you're not go feel the pressure because it will only show the weakness inside you.

When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.

It's still impossible to believe that the colony really determined to fight against the world. Embracing themselves in the eyes of the real world will be a joke for everyone around.

Do to others as you would have them do to you.

Pleasing your own absurdity will contrast yourself a whole lot better in sight. A physical sight of yours will never fool us type of mind. Us people don't buy other people thoughts with physical beauty or manipulating words because us people is living in a higher level of thinking and better than your colony. Plus, where d'you come from doesn't matter. It's how you developed your thinking level is what matter right now. Arousing the subject of the originality doesn't just showing your plain stupidity of creating the spark between the stone, it also showed that your a moron thinking that we belong in your moron colony.

You're trying to spark the stone so hardly since the start of this, and now you've seen the spark gradually on the move to burn your own pride and rape every self confidence of yours that'll be drag down to the mouth of a volcano. For every move that you'll take after this, will be a step for you going down to another level of hell living here.

For every love, hate, war, stupid, funny story, it'll always have an ending to it. We'll make sure we'll win over for the victory and you'll end cause you started it first. MORON.

Hope you took the time munching this to your brain.

dada.

optimistic is a nature.

I can't keep myself being so optimistic about the times that are ahead of us because I'll keep on and keep on thinking on what will happen after that? Will I still be able to breath? Is any accident going to happen to one of us? Is another disaster going to happen some more?

It's not like I'm currently not 'living my life to fullness' as what everybody keep claiming here and there, especially after the disaster that happened few days ago in Japan. Pray for them peeps.

It's just, I'm just giving a strong understanding and awareness for every of us to think that the time actually won't give a damn about what your future plan is because actually they will come anytime they want, they will crash you down anytime you want.

Just telling, why not doing it now?

why not telling the person you love, that you love them NOW?

why not telling the person who you hurt that you're sorry, NOW?

why not doing what you want to do badly, NOW?

why wait and postponing again and again and again?

Time, that's a silent killer that we actually can't take it back. FULLSTOP.

don't worry, because when I die, I'll make sure I'll haunt you guys who treat me bitchly back!!!!!!

nah, just kidding :p

told chu bout it before.

keeping myself hush in the class (?) that's so not me.

WHEN A GIRL IS SILENT, THAT’S PRETTY DANGEROUS. SHE’S EITHER OVERTHINKING, TIRED OF WAITING, ABOUT TO BLOW, LONELY, NEEDS A HUG, FALLING APART OR CRYING INSIDE, AND MOST PROBABLY ALL OF THOSE ABOVE

had a long distance phone call with Hanna the other day. she took off the broken needle that's stuck inside my wound. I love her && you, you can just let it be the memory. I don't care if you'll say it's the best/sweet/bitter/suck/stupid memories because for me, it's the best and sweet and everything positive that ever happen to me.

"i'm single"

"yeah right...."

one of my friend told me that, and up until yesterday I didn't believe a word that she said until she really proved it. WOW WOW WOW. this really showed that relationship, no matter how long is it, no matter what connection you had with the other person, it'll always break if there are no 'ying & yang' chemistry. I'm stunned with the news, really really stunned. and I'm actually phobia of listening to one of those heartbreaking story. jeez, chill bah.

and the fuck who you think you are?! My paps never scold me in person with a lot of cursing in the convo okay. 1 hour of scolding and cursing me? it's good enough for me to give you a reason that I shouldn't be in contact with you anymore because for me, even when I want to scold a person or giving out the tension of it to them, I'll think rationally on WHY should it be them? and WHAT should be the boundary within it? You should have thought about it before opening your mouth and curse 'FUCK YOU' for a thousand time for an hour to me.

rozi and me again. swimming was fun and i think I lost 10 kg BAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

ehem

people those days should stop telling people these days of how hard they were that time walking barefooted going here and there and how lucky we were this time. hmmm wait, i.m.o. poeple these days will not actually tell how easy it is but actually they will just say that how do they run away from bicthes/bastard and asked them to not be one of them and how hard to get into the society because of the 'sharpness' of their eyes on any criteria a person is.

gawd, and actually the era who made the people to have such eyes sight -.- bahahahaha how ironic it is to improve everything while something is held back down. ' 1 steps forward 2 steps backward ' community created a hallucination that blinded others eyes of what pathetic it is already nowadays. well, it's good that disney's still creating movies that showed how beautiful life's were and still could hold back everything for the kids to live in a wonderful life for a moment. just for moment.

when you come to them and told them how people treating you, and how it's hard to get rid of it anywhere. sometimes, they could only say ' haiiihhh, begitulaaa. sya pun gitu dulu ' 'haaaiiihhh, sya pun pernah jadi remaja bhh' ' haaaiihhh, kami lagi susa dulu bh ' errm, could that actually be called a comfort? stop comparing about the past and now, even though you'll say it's not a big differences between both of the situation. comparing won't make any impact of the sense that actually IT HAVE DIFFERENCES.

why bah all people getting weirder and weirder and more weird o o

and nowwww, i don'y know what more to say *running out of idea*

&& i know that photo above doesn't apply with any i'm typing here bahaha, i likey that photo :]

xxx

it's  4.59 a.m next minute will be 5 and few more hours to 11 for me to stand inside starbuck. not feeling any weight on my eyes, AT ALL.

crased tiara's house again :p went to karam to have kfc for dinner just the two of us and bought 2 horror movies, BANGKOK HAUNTED was zzzzzz and YOGA was walking slow until the climax which made me fell asleep for few moments and during the climax moment, it still gave me thrills though hahahahaaaa i admit i'm a penakut -.- 

woke up at 6 and untie tiara's hair. she look like OM, just ask the twins how does she look like in the picture. no, I won't be posting the picture here :p *omg my dad's alarm just rang. he'll be checking me anytime soon* ok, we took our so called little nap after sending sherene to school. woke up again and get ready and sent the recycling stuff took hazel (we forgot to go to taman perdana as what tiara's mum asked us to do to find maid -.- ) 

took a long journey to i.s. to fetch the twins. talk talk talk laugh laugh laugh, cramped inside the car, finding out my salary is not bank in YET which is late for 4 fucking days, yougurberry, pokkai, dead end......

EVERYTHING IS FUCKING CONNECTED WITH HER. bodoh la. ish.

and j, thank you for your breaking up april fool present, it really made my fool-ness out. CLEARLY, still i love you -.-

dada.

malaaaassss

took 1 hour break from work and went to waterfront for dinner with them, had long talk with darkness due to the earth hour event, but i can see the light from warisan -.- wth although I could only spend like an hour with them cause I gotta head back to the shop for closing (it's the rule hmmmmp) but it's still = fun :)

Tiara's jeep is like WOW, dad said it's a JIMMY SUZUKI? idk hahaha it's leopard printed and cute cute cute oh! that car made 4 of us, not hazel but priiti went hyper all night long. Tiara get to drive first ; she's good cause THAT'S HER CAR! then iva 2nd ; she got the scariest roundabout turning and U-turn turning ever! then me 3rd ; scary in junction cause i'm sooooo lazy to stop before the white line and would just drive straight hahahahahaha 4th of course priiti ; she's ok but because her car is auto all this while and that jeep is manual sooo we got a few bit of bummer on the road :D but overall ok la :)

did mum's place. it's so preeettyyy, dad did well on this although it costed few ks :s but she deserved a pretty place bh hehehe

you know? i think i could actually imagine myself shouting and yelling to few bloody mammal in the future who I actually sharing my blood with :s can any of these thing go wilder? and the answer is : cannnnn of course can la pfft

&& to whom concern who got thyroid problem, please take care of your health cause i don't wanna lose another person that i love. ishhhh. 

dada.

it's been so long

it's been 1 year 2 months and 21 days i never cut my hair and finally i got myself a repair for it hahaha after this fixation i want to keep it for another year some more weeee~ ameera, hazel, cat, cor,ged and malina, i miss you guys so much.


kang is going to kl on april, you know, i'm trying so hard to keep in touch with everyone bh, don't hate me if you think i'm not trying hard. plus, my working schedule is not always the same so if you guys are free just try and ask me if i could join but just keep in your mind that my house is at TELIPOK and not kk anymore. jauh oh my house this ish, the only place near with it is 1b so ya, ko tau la pa mo buat.

WHY DO YOU HAVE PROBLEM WITH ME BEING SEMI-INDEPENDENT NOW!?

god, can't you just be proud with it cause you know i'm using my own money now and not dad's one. i don't want to be known as the 'pemboros daughter' which have a single parent to support his two kids. at least i'm trying to help and not kikis all his duit, buduh! you want to take that house? fine, take all what you want there. cause we don't care anymore. we've been wasting so much money on that house and yet you guys never take care of it. fuck some more with it, go fuck with that house hahahahhaha shits i'm still semi-indie now cause makan minum my dad still pay punya -.-

i never want to remember my life as a life burdening others, it'll leave so much pain inside my cereblum, ew ew ewwwwwww.

21/11, ilyjd

sweet and sour?

why is this world getting hot and hotter?!!!???!!! people fighting to stop global warming but still thinks of creating cars more and getting cars? ironic ironic ironic.... belakang rumah pun tebakar sini sana. PANAS!

got my snowcap today from him, weeee! valentines day movie? just nice lah, not that the bomb or anything else.

i read tia status today, woi!!! apa cerita!??? hahahahahahahahaha

so 2 more days to spm results. god, i'm like counting the days D: but dady going to help me take it, nah, trying not to stress about it cause you know, how hard i struggled last year :) muah muah muah.

2 more days to a 7 days straight of working without days off. phewwww, that's going to take my breath away *scream* i just feel like stress when knowing that the freaking cctv is set online and they can look at us anywhere anytime D:

hey, what'dyu feel when you're at my position huh? gooooddd, help me hahahahaa

i love today, it's perfect with a touch of heat waves sent from above -.- yes, it's tasty. nyummeh, not haha.

b&w

just telling you black and white, b&w what i'm feeling. cause to be frank, i don't know what I want to say here. today? yesterday? two days ago? caught in the middle, standing between the fences? fuck i don't know what i'm typing here. so please ignore it hehe

i think playing random chords on the guitar could help in releasing shits out though :D:D *someone is actually doing it now* moving image on the screen, that's just the way to stay connected *groan* can you actually sing a song that suppose to be melow and scream? ya, you could hehe well, what about taking random chords and singing to what you are thinking and putting it like it is a nice made out song and sings it to someone special? sweeeeet :p

IN A CHAOTIC WORLD, YOU ARE MY CALMER - jeremy passion

what a stalker of me stalking to the bunch of philipino singers gehehehehehehehee now now now, maybe in my past life i'm one of the real stalker? just like now, the net made my life more easier!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA stalking have been the easiest job nowadays :D

hmmmm, what more i can say here? oh, next topic? i'll be talking about cctv, you know what's a cctv? go google lah bh! :p ok, that will be in the next post ahahahahaa muah xoxo

i love you bh j :)

gasp

just mesmerizing all, how could I be so selfish? haha. god, thanks for reminding me this. i should stop dreaming and coming back to reality back. life ain't bad now, korean drama made me thinking alot haha surprise? maybe drama ain't just an entertainment but a waking up point to people, erm like me? haha nah, it's nothing big. it just made me thought of where i should be standing now and what i should or shouldn't do *gasp :D:D

this month is loosen up abit due to my request to work less days than before. but i'll be continuing the months so that i'll not end up rotting at home and at least earning more money too though :p last weekend i spent my days at Tuaran for ma 1 year anniversary. time flew so fast oh, but nothing will ever change my love for her :) miss you ma, at least you're resting in paradise now.

result coming up soon enough, then everybody will be busy applying to go here and there. i'll pray for a good place to study.

muah! xoxo oh! iqbal's back here. he's more tagap now HAHA

stop complaning, get it working.

well well well, today was just splendid. somehow, I can't let my arse stay for a day inside the house especially on my off day -.- so today, i went out with my 3 pimples, tiara pimple not with us huhu not complete eh haha

talked about how life goes, talked about how fashion rolls, that peep come but tida jadi come made tia freak out for a moment, that peep was there and she's not there made ryu go round round haha i speak out when her topic come right out. overall syok lah :) the movie? hmmm, GAY :p I can't help laughing though. but I HAD FUN! I MISS YOU GIRLS!!!!! muah muah muah xoxoxoxoxoxoxox :*

'HEY YOU'RE HALF DONKEY!' 'NO! I'M HALF SHEEP!'

went to miss nina house for CNY open house. that house cost much for it's hugeness! had fun there taking picture, playing with firecracker. while everybody's wearing red or other color, 2 of my bosses wore BLACK. awesome lah them haha.

now here's actually come across my mind right now. sometime, do you actually ever wonder why YOUR life is like this RIGHT NOW? does it crossed your mind that YOUR life is actually flow with just the direction of yours? yeap, just like the concert instructor.

hmmmm.

let say your life is sucky right now, well did you asked yourself why is it like that? maybe you're the one who made that decision and walah! it goes in a bitchy way. when it doesn't get in your way, you will start to whine, and whine some more. yes, please whine some more for your mistake. like dude, you can actually stand up and fight for it, there's tones of people out there whose life more sucky then yours.

BUT

some people life suck cause it's unavoidable. the problem is born with them. but what lucky thing is, major of them knows how to stand up and make it like something just to face with and endure with it.

omg, i'm sick of this HAHA

FACE IT! life doesn't suck if ya'll just stop whining.

sorry, telampau befikir. HAHA. no, this post is not meant for anybody. the community disgust me :p

MONSTER! love love love :)

february 2010

so yeah, it's already the fourth day of February. wow, time flew so fast. next thing coming up on the next coming month will be the SPM result, awesome, just perfect. ew.I've been struggling to get even a penny right now, just to reach my target for my baby jet T.T you'll know who's baby jet :p maybe i'll get that next month *crossed finger* hmmmm.

I'd been watching too much Taiwan's Drama right now hahahahahhaa every day off I'll spend 2 days finishing those drama on net. god, how pathetic I am -.- Last Sunday my head screw was loosen up abit and made me buy Haruki Murakami 'Norwegian Wood' novel and registered to be Times member HAHA but I don't regret buying the book though cause the story is superb. I adore his writing so much. I'm gong to get the next book erm few months later lah, cause I want to save my penny first :S i hate when thinking about that.

I love weekend, last weekend was pretty much awesome cause on Friday I went bbq at Tiara's house and sleeping there until Sunday. She's so funny cause even when I'm sleeping, she'll still continue talking to me. Then after a moment she'll stop and slip her self to sleep :D the next day was a hectic day in the shop. The twins , Aqila, Gavin and the geng stop by the shop and they did some shopping. Well just for cat and aqila, they rest was trying to get cor to get some dress on HAHA :p we love you bah cor :))

Tomorrow, I'll be going out with Tiara to do her shopping then might be going for a swim. OH! there's a new girl at the shop now, she's kinda pretty and tall though hahahahahaha LOL! can't wait for the weekend HAHA

JLS, MONSTER, J, DEMON, ily. smile sikit :)

YELLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm having a same routine kinda everyday. every day off was a same thing that I got to do too. either rotting inside the house doing the house chore or going out. I'm trying to finish my 'hours' for the driving license but seems like my working hours doesn't really helping now. pffft. bus is the only way to go out to the town.

Sooo, Baby's Grandma passed away so meaning that I gotta work FULL this week. NO day off at all. nevermind, at least I'm getting more commission and which is equal to $ :p everything is money right now, I don't care whether you're going to call what creature haha bitch :p one lesson now, NO MORE LENDING MONEY. NO NO NO!!!!!

I had dinner with Ameera, Pritti, Eric, Llyod, Olin & Maureen on Monday night. I took my one hour break which ended up to be something else after being hypnotized by Maureen to lie -.- never mind, I'll try to make it the first and the last to lie (in my dream)

Explaining what I'm going through at work is so much of a burden to type it out because it will cost anger that exceed my limit of patient. Whatever. That bitch can say whatever she wanted too but I'll just remain silent during working and she can waste her energy talking and I'll get customers to buy more stuff to get more commision HAHAHA

I found out something that really gives out a smile through out the whole day today. It's just an awesome news EVER, right monster? I hope it'll work out this time :)

GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please come to POSE BOUTIQUE which is located at Centre Point Palm Square behind starbuck. There will be new dresses coming this week. Hurry before other bitches get a grab on it which is ALREADY did today. fuckaaaa.

ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!! muah xoxo

dead.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

I'm drop dead exhausted.
night after work then I got the chance to contact him
work place is awesome but sometimes boring when there's no customer
my boss is awesome.
Tiara, Priiti, Sherine and Olin came to visit me yesterday.
today and tomorrow I'm off but got to do housework too.
oh now, Tiara is a housewife :D

oh yeah i feel awesome!!!!

hello there :)

I got my first try on driving today, whupeee!!! I feel superb awesome even though at the start dad only let me try driving to the front and reversing it. I think I did pretty well on balancing the clutch, gotta practice more on that. We drove at Stadium Likas car parks by the way. You can see there's alot of small cars driving around to learn driving but well ME? ahuh, I'm the only one driving the ford ranger. That car is huge and the stering is hard D: 

Now, I officially leaving my LG phone. 

and that's my phone before. it's pretty, i love the shinny metal, the starry keypad arrow. it's like really elegant and no one really has it :p BUT one main thing about LG is that it always WHOP! BLACK OUT! and I'll be like *WTF!? and the battery is like having a period which cause it to be low and high and low and low and DEAD. What actually happened until I decided to give up on the phone is when yesterday, when I really need to use the phone, and I'm away at the Driving Bengkel. It's dead. and when I got cor text, and I'm about to reply, it's dead again. and when I'm about to pick cor phone call, once again DEAD. so that's it. I don't need that phone anymore *urgh.

but of course, I need a new one. Maybe my salary could help in buying it. I'm dreaming of the Black E72. It's nice, classy and easy to use too. Well, of course I haven't get to check the price yet. But I already falling for it *sigh. So, why do I have to have a new phone? ONE, i love mms-ing and receiving mms. TWO, i need the voice recorder. I can't just like bring a voice recorder to anywhere I want, right? THREE, I want WI-FI phone. It's just easy when you're boring at some mall, and you can actually sit near either Starbuck or McD and online there. well of course you can't surf that much due to the low connectivity but at least you got something. 

that's all for today love. muah.