surprise?

:)

can i smell you?

how could this possibly happen? this is SICK. every song that I'd been listening is making me sick. why? haha, this is funny but it actually reminded me of you and her together >.< sick much. disgusting much. why lah I can get to know you people? -.- interesting people to make fun of and at the same time it actually make sense when oh fuck it off haha

but now that youve got that somebody new
needs you just like how im needing you
i guess i'll fade away
and now my skies are gray
i'm a little too late
you've got me wonderin

that was sick. real sick haha

want more? wait ah. i search for more (teda kerja lain,awal pagi again this -.- )

So I'm lookin through these boxes.
My life's gone off track.
'Cause its been three years.
She hasn't written back.
But in my eyes.
She's still mine.

sick kan? hahaha oh got again

And I know it sounds so stupid,
To be waiting this long,
But I'm still in love and I know I'm not wrong,
'Cause in my eyes,
She was mine.

you sick singer! kesian betul oh tida kena balas balas the love. first love lagi that 3 fucking years again that! i know lah it's one PURE love or whatever it called. hahahaha
fuck it off lah. i just want to annoy you people hahahaha but i think it wont work either hahahaa
PSSSH.

wewuwewuuuuuu next week trial bomb it down ah!

LETS CARRY OUT AN EXPERIMENT

aim of experiment : to find out how gay the love are.

hypothesis : n/a

manipulated variable : the amount of up and down of YOU
responding variable : the ugly ME
fixed variable : GAY LOVE FOR YOU?

conclusion : SENDIRI BUAT LAH! n/a

:)

he did hella awesome one!

Can you be my bear, sleep through cold winters and know that I'm there
Cause when the spring comes, I'm picking flowers, baby here I come.

- Gabe Bondoc

AAAWWWWW!!!! :)

what an awesome day to just look at the book and knowing you standing just infront of me :)

wait, i'm getting some sense here
I FEEL AWESOME!
maybe a lil bit mean.
but hey, your attitude made me acted such way.
MUAH. ex - oh - ex - oh

someone fetch me from my house to 1b.
awesome ait? :D

my mr. johnny evergreen must:

# 2. never fall asleep in ANY movie with me.
jude out from the list sudah hazel :p

this is not an emo song -.- gabe bondoc is ma man x) maybe he could be my MR. JOHNY EVERGREEN x)

Well i wrote you a song, on a napkin today
It didn`t take me that long already knew what to say.
But it would`ve clearly been wrong cause it begged you to stay.
So i threw it away, threw it away.
Because,

Even though i like to keep you mine,
My plan is not to change your mind
I lock the feelings deep inside,
For another time, for another time,


Don`t get me twisted
Cause i admire everything that you`re doing
You have my best wishes
And, and i know that you`re gonna get through it
So girl if this is something that you`re needing,
To those feelings be true,
You can only love me, as much as you love you
But girl i know you know that it`s the truth, yeah.

Even though i like to keep you mine,
My plan is not to change your mind
I lock the feelings deep inside,
For another time, for another time,
i`m suppressing my fight
Cause i know that you`re right
Girl you gotta do what you gotta do
So you could be a better you
I put my questions on hold
And even though i feel cold
I`ll be bold for you
And trust that i know my planyeah, don`t you change your mind for me, baby yeah
Even though i like to keep you mine,
My plan is not to change your mind
Don`t change your mind.

my spine is fucking rusting day by day. please, donate me one of your disc. crash and burn, i hope that will happen to the ugly SPM.

BABES, THE GAME AIN'T OVER YET.
5 months not having either fb&bf.
yes, it's a game&i'm not losing either one.
my money is still safe.

:)

will you be my bestfriend before you call yourself my man?

I know That You've Been Calling Me,
And I'm happy that we met.
Don't think that I'm not interested.
I'm just playing hard to get

So much about this crazy game they call love
That I'm trying to understand,
So could you be my best friend,
Before you call yourself my man

Why can't I love you in slow motion,
Take my time,
Take away the pressure on my mind
Really get to know you
But rewind
Wanna love you in slow motion
Why can't I?

You seem to know just what you want
And I like your confidence
Some things a girl should never rush
Cause If you do you hurt yourself

I'm too young for tears in the night
And it's to soon for this to be right
Don't wanna mess with your pride
The questions not when but why

holiday got no 'turn on' button at all :o

ARE YOU TURN ON?
yes,i know you do Hazel :p
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you :o


damn, i'm so slow
damn, it's a return
damn damn damn
so outdated oh me -.-
not having fb making it react zillion more slower psssh
so okey, now then I know Christine with Vincent
slow gila oh me -.-
oh well, it's kinda a return for not telling her about last time too
L.O.L.








I'M UNCONSCIOUSLY CARE FOR YOU
that's a bad news
*gasp*on that second, i felt almost like a boy.

i think my neighbor went deaf by now.






I'M CRAVING FOR A SMEXY FEDORA!!!!!!

she polluted my mind already. i'm obsessed with it now.

To dispel any rumor,
I should do this sooner than later,
I had a girl and I didnt hate her,
But I let her go
I swear that Ive got problems,
And she can never stop them from ending.
My head is fucked,
And Ive been pretending.
Shes the one,
How could I let it go on?
You wanna hurt some one,
Thats why I wrote you this song

Kimberly, dont cry,
Ill always be by your side.
Yeah, Kimberly dont cry,
A broken heart just takes time.

Lets take it one step further,
I never meant to hurt her so badly.
We had a love and I can say madly,
(Let her go)
I couldnt let it go on.
(Let her know)
I put my soul in this song.

Yeah, I could shed, a thousand tears,
But youd never see them falling.
Yeah, I could walk a thousand years,
But youd never see me crawling.

Ive said it before,
And Im saying it one time more.

- A.A.R.

when I said to a person that 3 words. i meant it. yes, i do. let me repeat it again, I LOVE YOU TAYLOR LAUTNER :)

Ameera just forgotten she loves it too&&just translated the A.A.R. Dance inside song to a sex song.

well, she collected porn.

CORINE TEDA GUNA PUNYA GAME YEEEEEE

if you think that this quote 'be who you are' best suited in life. partially, you are wrong. not in the meaning to say that you can just believe in that or in the other way around from it (idk what im saying -.-) so ok, back to the start. people bitch each other. even you're the BFF. think about this, if your friend excepted you just the way you are, when you did something wrong ONCE. they'll go bitch you and making it sounds so awful. so they excepted you the way you are lah? NAH-UH!if you told them something awful about you in the past, they'll go EW to you. so they excepted you the way you are lah? if you missed one part of their important event, they'll go 'he/she don't come *started bicthing*', so they excepted you the way you are lah? It's just that you are the one who GOT to be who you are BEST SUITE to the surrounding. kept the one WHO YOU ARE which oppostie to your surrounding.

oh well, I'm here not to tell and haunt your mind telling that "don't trust your friend ah' 'don't show who you are ah' 'you friend don't like that, bitch him/her ah' etc etc etc. I'm just saying that, you got to except your choice of friends atmosphere. the atmosphere which you could imuned to. the atmosphere that you just can feel the way who you are in the end. lalala. crap oh me -.-

I talk about this few days ago actually. I think it was with Tia and Ameera. banyaklah we drag about :D my mood up and down right now oh, that pms-ing season getting near. shits. my phone? it DEAD. DEAD MEAT. DEAD METAL. DEAD BATTERY.

BUNNYS ARE CUTE!!! BUNNY BUNNY BUNNNNYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

holiday? no mood oh. i'm missing hazel, ged, ameera, cat, cor, dai, dana, iva them already :D
haih, go library meet me AH!!!!!








study study study study study study study study study study study study study
spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm spm
scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream scream

you smell is UGLY

LEAVE HIM
before it's too late.
you deserve someone better.
or just don't care what I'm writting here.
because I got no rights to judge your relationship, friend.

I'M DISGUSTED WITH MY OWN SCALP
yes it's true.


HAZEL I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's been 5 days we didn't met :(

WHAT'S THAT IN YOUR EYES???!!!!!
oh, the spark just disappeared :x


scream hard.
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i wonder what will happen if I threw that piece of cloth to you that day.

in the library, i smelt alot of ugly perfumes.
it's UGLY.
it came from all the BONAH'S GENG
it's UGLY.

my mr. johnny evergreen must:
# 1. smell pretty for me. well, lavender will do. tehee :]

when a call from my friend asking for her cousin to talk CRAP was awesome enough to laugh out loud.

BABE!
you made my day.

rewinding to the great moment~

my cellphone rang
OH! it's Cat
Answered it.
me : hello? yes cat?
guy : *he's gasping for breath, all i can hear is alien language at first* joy love *TUT* joy love *tut* *gasping for breath again* joy love *tut* *evil laugh from him*
me: ha!?

call ended.

*the name cannot be mention here :p*

awesome huh?
Cat! Is he the 7 years old kid?
you cougar! -.-

I hate my neighbors.
they are not awesome :(
they did karaoke right now. his voice is UGLY.
he tend to sing the SAYANG word to sounds like SHAYANG
WTF!?
I miss my old home.
I think it's because I'd been living in small area for 3 years & now I'm not used to house attached between two more house HAHAHAHA

My mood not awesome today.
I can't go to the party.
2 party :(
Adam's Bachelor Party
&
Iva's House.

At least on Friday,
something made me felt better.

he gave me that sweater.

although he's a bitch to me sometime.
well, at least he did something that made me feel better.
such a sweetheart NOT!
thanks bestie.

i swear alot these days :o

BITCH
go get some balls on you please. I don't reply blank text.

they say two wrongs don't make it right.

now cat, that's the real dress. awesome?

DUDE!? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!?
every time we're in contact, you'll find something to make my hypothalamus worked hard.
bestfriend babilah.

you're like a zillion pieces of jokes in my life, trust me it's true :)

DUDE
seriously I made jokes about you everyday.
you left something which I can L.O.L. with my babes.

I'd been dreaming of green snake for the month.
and I stopped dreaming bout' it this month.
I wonder why.

SEMANGAT ASABIYAH
ia semakin menular didalam komuniti kami.

ABSOLUTE BOYFRIEND & CERES - CELESTIAL ANGELS
awesome porn comic. sort of.

WANNA TAKE A RIDE?
on the disco library up and down so called his name * cannot be mention* chair.
it's Cat favorite ride from me :]

I'm in a CIARA mood right now.
if he look like a dog,
acted like a dog,
quacked like a dog,
that means.......... tralalalalaaaa.

JASON
the same old pervert I'd ever met.
JAMES
the same old bitch. bring the baju bah!
AYRTON
called me kakak? f -.-
HAZEL
making ALOT of money right now.
AMEERA
cannot go to the party :( means i'm not going too. sorry selina.
CORINE
you are so pretty :p
GED
can't stop touching her boobs :D
JORDY
made herself kuyak during est class.


and him. suddenly came in my mind x)

what's that on your hear? oh, it's just horn coming out :)

*i don't post this kind of picture in fb, you know* - Papa Jun Yi.

Library moment was awesome, since we sat on A LINE.

Ameera = Getting high of telling every person how she love Tyson and Tim, didn't went to library because she's stuck in the living room, can't go up the room, the door to the main stairs was stuck quite hard enough to make her spent half of the day at the living room only ( next time, built your own stairs please :D )
Cat = well, abusing my mind by asking me to lose weight by torturing me to walk to library.
Ged = got flu, got invitation to a wedding, got boo boo attack by the fabulous me, got his mom jacket with her at school.
Cor = got a network connection problem because of Ameera sitting between us, had a bummer writing english essay, i kinda keep of repeating the same line of word to her *just say those 3 words, i know you're thinking!* heh :p
jordy = well, i want to point 7 fingers on her and say BOOM! her rudolph nose getting rudolph-ish much, pissing Cor during add m class, complaints how I lost her number so many time.
hazel = haven't paid yet :o ramas boobs, singgah class like ussual, bitching.
jun yi = brought a BIG POSTIVIE poster for geddy ged ged.
award = being such an awesome bestfriend although I'm such a bitch to him last time x)
Abel = annoying much, teasing much about my eyebag, whatever -.-
gwen = talk talk talk bitch bitch bitch about peeps, drank my coke all sudden, told her about Iqbal and Brandon most embarassing moment last year x)
iva = WAS ABSENT????!!!!!

i'll crap about me next time, or never. ciao bonita :)

obsession.

this crap is stuck in my mind. cat, i know you love it too :D

i could spend my whole night with you. feeling your warm body molecule close to mine. snogging you whole night won't be that hard for me cause it seems easy when I'm with you. darn you boy, you got my eyes on you. I'll be kissing your neck and you'll be bitting my shoulder ( chace crawford crawling inside my mind now :D ), the confident of yours, sliping the movement towards mind without doubt. cuddling and spooning all night. darn you boy, you got my drown on you. our lips are locked and my leg are locked to yours. bite me, tell me i'm not dreaming. it's a night to remember.

i want to kiss chace crawford X)

before i forgot.

Ameera was moody I forgot what day. is it wednesday? oh yeah wednesday. it's because of tyson. her lovely tyson. pritti friends got the passes to watch A.A.R. concert and she told her and she feel like crying already. she called si dungot and ask him to go. so this is what i got from si dungot blog, which is sweet.

don't worry ameera. i'll vote for him. and trust me, one day you'll get his kiss juga hahahahahha.

shit.

have ever felt hurt so badly? have you ever felt a pain built torn in your body? have you ever felt to just kill it and sliped it away? i do. it's pain like shit. why do it have to come back again? I thought it's alright already, but it came back again. shit. darn you ingrow nail. ugh.

i watched G.I. Joe last night and while enjoying his hotness on screen. junior potong steam when he told me he look like him. screw you junior. he don't look like him. screw you. ih! screw the 1b cinema people who made me lost few parts of the movie. they made me lost the big view from him. ih!

after reading ged's blog, make me more cranky. damn those bitches who held your pooh book. they know nothing but white lies. they know nothing but craping.

darn you ingrow nail. shits. so cranky oh right now.

it's august! :D

si bolitotok reporting.

eh ello!? August already! why time fly like F1 oh? damn.... oh shit I'm onlining right now, wait. it's not even in the bet. so I'm not pokkai yet :p I WILL NOT LOSE! *blek.

my header awesome kan? ameera drew it haha

i got this from Cat's blog and it's really funny :D

i shall dedicate this blog post to a certain guy who may not know me, but i know him. i think.

you think that was cool, letting her wait like that? SCREW YOURSELF. you think she said all that to hurt you? NO SHE DIDNT. if it hurt, you should've come today and hash things out.

you're still the coward that made her cry last year. i dont get why you came back for her if you werent going to treat her right. you're such an asshole, your parents should've named you ass-hole when they gave birth to you. you think because you're okay looking then you can do this to her?

you're such a bitch its hilarious. like, do you even have a dick? because a real guy would rather face the shit rather than run away from it. i hope you bit your tongue in half when we were talking about you. they say for every bad thing someone says about you, you bite your tongue. wow, maybe your tongue is severed, i mean, theres lots of people who dont like you.

AND YOU STILL OWE HER CHOCOLATE.

i called the picture in the biology slideshow porn today :)

no offense for posting it up kay? it's over already and I don't really care much. I'm begging one thing. stop singing that fucking gay song. it's annoying and shits you girls know already ways to do so. psssh.

ooooppss. sorry for few peeps who can't read my blog already. at first I thought of keeping it hidden from every people. but in the end I'd decided to delete that few peeps who I don't even know but they are on everyone network. especially erm 'THAT 2', you know who I'm talking about. they both registered for the photography lesson too. now I don't feel like joining anymore. better stay at home than staying with those :)

oh be prepared. this is going to be a long post ;)

today was kinda awesome. yeap, seminar was pretty to me, none is ugly. there's this part during Maths session.

ameera : gimme your hand.
joy : *giving the hand*
after few second....
joy: hold my hand until it reached the equlibrium temperature.
ameera : ha!?

well. at least i applied something from physics right?

yesterday, Ameera created a boyfriend for me. his name is 'Johny Evergreen' in tution, Dayana got a created boyfriend too. So we made them brothers, his name is 'Jonathan Evergreen'. I'm going to get my Johny Evergreen after 5 months.

wednesday, erm. Dady Jun Yi and Mumy Ged fetch me from school. ged was absent that day due to her flu and fever. went to pertanian for lunch and when ged told me wesley, russel and patrick is there too. i don't care much because I'm not on my specs. my vision is totally blur. but wes did called me then I said hi to them but well still blur haha. Took many many many picture in the library that day. I want Jun Yi's camera badly man. I got the ticket from Adam already, 15th August, PARTY NIGHT YAW! I wish all the girls can anjoy the night together that night. haih.

you know, he's like syok sendiri. he's sitting on the nitrogenous balloon and having fun up there while you doesn't feel anything at all. and suddenly POOP! you just kasi pecah the balloon. then he terus jatuh. back to reality. - Ameera

what do you feel when you had the gun, pointing at the one you hate, straightly to he/she head? I asked that question the the girls when it suddenly pop in my mind. hey, there's no reason for me for thinking this way, kay? too much action figure made me think this way actually haha. well, iva, jordy and ged won't kill them. but cat do and me? well, i'll be playing with the gun around them. torture them. that's all. i won't kill them punya heheeee.

when me and ameera was walking in the library, suddenly I point at a corner. Ameera noded and told me that actually library reminded her alot of Jared HAHA well that's true, same goes to me, psssshh. funny when we both talked about how fun it is when with him hahahahahaha so much of sweet memories and it end already hahaha.

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konklusinya, friends stay forever in my cerebrum.