YELLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm having a same routine kinda everyday. every day off was a same thing that I got to do too. either rotting inside the house doing the house chore or going out. I'm trying to finish my 'hours' for the driving license but seems like my working hours doesn't really helping now. pffft. bus is the only way to go out to the town.

Sooo, Baby's Grandma passed away so meaning that I gotta work FULL this week. NO day off at all. nevermind, at least I'm getting more commission and which is equal to $ :p everything is money right now, I don't care whether you're going to call what creature haha bitch :p one lesson now, NO MORE LENDING MONEY. NO NO NO!!!!!

I had dinner with Ameera, Pritti, Eric, Llyod, Olin & Maureen on Monday night. I took my one hour break which ended up to be something else after being hypnotized by Maureen to lie -.- never mind, I'll try to make it the first and the last to lie (in my dream)

Explaining what I'm going through at work is so much of a burden to type it out because it will cost anger that exceed my limit of patient. Whatever. That bitch can say whatever she wanted too but I'll just remain silent during working and she can waste her energy talking and I'll get customers to buy more stuff to get more commision HAHAHA

I found out something that really gives out a smile through out the whole day today. It's just an awesome news EVER, right monster? I hope it'll work out this time :)

GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please come to POSE BOUTIQUE which is located at Centre Point Palm Square behind starbuck. There will be new dresses coming this week. Hurry before other bitches get a grab on it which is ALREADY did today. fuckaaaa.

ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!! muah xoxo

dead.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

I'm drop dead exhausted.
night after work then I got the chance to contact him
work place is awesome but sometimes boring when there's no customer
my boss is awesome.
Tiara, Priiti, Sherine and Olin came to visit me yesterday.
today and tomorrow I'm off but got to do housework too.
oh now, Tiara is a housewife :D

oh yeah i feel awesome!!!!

hello there :)

I got my first try on driving today, whupeee!!! I feel superb awesome even though at the start dad only let me try driving to the front and reversing it. I think I did pretty well on balancing the clutch, gotta practice more on that. We drove at Stadium Likas car parks by the way. You can see there's alot of small cars driving around to learn driving but well ME? ahuh, I'm the only one driving the ford ranger. That car is huge and the stering is hard D: 

Now, I officially leaving my LG phone. 

and that's my phone before. it's pretty, i love the shinny metal, the starry keypad arrow. it's like really elegant and no one really has it :p BUT one main thing about LG is that it always WHOP! BLACK OUT! and I'll be like *WTF!? and the battery is like having a period which cause it to be low and high and low and low and DEAD. What actually happened until I decided to give up on the phone is when yesterday, when I really need to use the phone, and I'm away at the Driving Bengkel. It's dead. and when I got cor text, and I'm about to reply, it's dead again. and when I'm about to pick cor phone call, once again DEAD. so that's it. I don't need that phone anymore *urgh.

but of course, I need a new one. Maybe my salary could help in buying it. I'm dreaming of the Black E72. It's nice, classy and easy to use too. Well, of course I haven't get to check the price yet. But I already falling for it *sigh. So, why do I have to have a new phone? ONE, i love mms-ing and receiving mms. TWO, i need the voice recorder. I can't just like bring a voice recorder to anywhere I want, right? THREE, I want WI-FI phone. It's just easy when you're boring at some mall, and you can actually sit near either Starbuck or McD and online there. well of course you can't surf that much due to the low connectivity but at least you got something. 

that's all for today love. muah.

what more can I say?

so okey, I don't really know what's my real intention of typing this out but I just want these to be part of the story that I'll read in another 10 years time hahahahha GAY -.- summarizing all of what have happened during oh-nine would be a LONG lines to go hahahhaha. I don't mind you stopping halfway though :)

mmm, school started.
Somehow when it first started, I'm actually still struggling. Struggling in my own feelings, struggling on taking care of her more, struggling to make myself concentrating on studies, struggling in making a perfect team. all of it, making me forcing myself harder and harder. I can assure you that everything that I've been doing and showing out in my bloody face are fake. can't you see I'm just shitting? hahaha nevermind -.- ambushing Hazel's class already make my day crazy than usual hahaha

when I hooked up with him, I though he'll be the one after gaining much shit the year before. he met her , she likes her and he went to her funeral. well, he can't really make it through with me though. after her leaving, my anger is compiling between me, my smile are shitting fake, my body is forced by my mind. LOL too drama liao HAHAHAHA aiya, at least some of you know what I'm talking about then ok lah :p The only moment that I can forget everything in a moment is when I'm dancing :D:D cliché much eh? well, what's your way then in relaxing yourself? must be a way right? except for crying lah. done with that lah! ish.

During that period, I still can't get myself into books. Hard my love. Hard. Want to try? Better not :) You never want to shit your head out now :p well, another joy came when hooking up with him again. I don't know why but it's just another mistake that I actually don't regret doing :) but oh well, things didn't really work out either. But real soon after all of that happen, I found the place the I fits in awesomely hahaha. tuh! my group of friend HAHA you know who you are lah! you guys brought me up to make my eyes stare at the words, you know!? hahaha tankiu tankiu beli beli muchie :)

but distraction don't really come that slow, it's SHIT FAST! in those 5 months. yes it's 5 months ( i remember because of that betting -.- ) one by one I got to face, so shit leh! nah! keluar suda ahlian saya! urgh. PMR weeks is the weirdest and fucked weeks that I've ever got! not only me, it included them too :p I brought them to my so called 'kids world'. then I started to fall abit more during that moment. But I managed to bring myself out with Tia phone calls and them lah. I realised that it's just a waste of time, so better shut my fucking mind and mouth from thinking or even talk about it.

joy oh joy when I came to reminiscing the day we went to Ameera's house to bake cake for Ged's Surprise birthday party. During those days, Junyi have been scold by me thousand of times though -.- sorry junyi. tulah you dunno how to keep secret! buat surprise tapi ish! hahahahhaa On her birthday we kidnapped her and Maureen drove her car real fast! it's like 3 round of roundabout! and we got to suffer with ged's yelling :p I'm actually bursting laughing that time. and we finally made a great surprise for her. with the flour attack which made her cried :D OH! I forgot to mention about my unsuccessful BITCHNESS to ged -.- too blur bh her!

well, graduation day came up. everybody looking gorgeous and I'm wearing the heels that dad choose for me. metrosexual dad got nice taste mah :D all the girls were pretty (some) hahahahhaa :p and that day was a day before my birthday too (which i totally not excited at all). I got a wish from the guy that I like ( well not really lah,just crush).

how can I forgot my birthday? for 17 years in my life, that's the greatest birthday that I ever have before. first I got surprise from my bitch Hazel which actually giving me J as the surprise too. for my whole entire life I never really shy to guy and he's the 1st one. mmm (if he's reading this he'll laugh his arse off, nevermind he dunno my blog link :p ) I don't like keeping it but I actually just let it out hahahaha feel bit better after that. and another surprise was a kidnapping of me to the tanjung aru beach. I didn't manage to take any picture though cause I was having my real joy. Ameera is the best lah, she choose the beach again!!!! my favourite place!!!! and and and!! they wrote on the sand! yeeee, now i feel like crying lah! i miss those moment though :'( I got videos of it, you can watch it down there.

november and december? mmm, guess you already know what month was it? yes, that was the month where we actually struggling in studies. man, so hard to believe it's over. sad. really really sad. guess that's it for now.

birthday at the beach from lucynda joey on Vimeo.

sad sad sadddd

i feel like throwing up. i feel like shit. i feel everything that could make my mind go upside down, gastric juice leveling up, everything that 'll will make me worst hahahahahahaha i never knew it's going to be this hard though. i think i want to eat alot la later T.T i don't know what the shit head i'm talking about now. no, don't ask me to stop swearing or else i'll curse you! fuck hahahahahhahaa 

WHY WHY WHYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!??????? i don't have to explain anything here. blah! hahahahhahahahahahhahaa 

rawr

perky perky perky bla bla bla. was sick for past few days, thank god Ms Nina postponed the day for me to start working -.- supposed to be today (monday) but she called and informed that I'll be starting next monday. 

now, i got an overcook sausage right in front of me. low body esteem making my brain work slow. don't forget to mention that I got to cool myself down 3 in the fuck morning to eat paracetamol, wipe myself and heat up the chicken soup. My  body is boiling up to 100 c :D:D kidding. it's just hot as HOT. fyi, I rarely get sick but if it's not because of that stupid ice cream, I wouldn't be sick by now. SHOO YOU ICE CREAM! 

I went to Lalitha's Farewell little gathering at waterfront last saturday night. Sorry Lali, I can't talk that much cause my tonsil really hurting me. But I really do will miss you :'( she's leaving tomorrow, sad oh! hmmmphhh.

Hazel started school today and she already told me there's zillions gazzemosss that puddle have changed -.- luckily I'm not there anymore :D :D I'm never sad leaving that school :) stupid bitch J got 49/50 for the computer test but still complain!?? YOU!!!! -.- nevermind. i don't like him at all! cause i.... erm i.... hehehehhe :) and i.... :( m.... nevermind.

gedebambammmmbooommMM!!!!!! ciao!

how do you feel about this?

hello 2010? man, so weird oh. just now i got the mood to update but when I saw something this mood suddenly disappear :D:D fuck man, you goddammit bitch stop contacting the person. fuck you. but wait, what if the person who's the one contacting that bitch? shit bitch lah x) i don't want to think about it lah. whatever.

I passed my driving computer test, 45/50 :p and after rushing to asia city for the interview, i got the job. at first i was scare but the atmosphere kinda made me go on with it x) and now i'm going to work at POSE boutique officially on the next monday whereas the students starting their school life -.- whatever la.

went to the airport to send Iqbal off to KL T.T so sad seeing him leaving and also hugging Tia beside me D: when we're waiting for the car, he sent me a very touching text. at least he knows i did something for him x) friend will always be friend bh :) dinner with tia's family at the nick of time -.- we're trying to find 4 people to join us which only end up with adam fu.

the dinner's dinner was SHIT? only the ice cream taste great hahaha the appetizer was weird man. really really weird O.O salmon sucks :p but we went for dancing on the dance floor though the songs was 'YMCA' "VEGAS' lalala oldies. yaw! where's pitbull???? sucka!!! anyway, it's tiring -.- slept at 2 after the phone call.

suppose to go to hazel's house today but sorry babe, i can't :( mood is totally HERO TO ZERO today :) aaaw, fucker.

i 'passed away' first. muah :)